I wouldn’t know about that
I wouldn’t know about that, I’ve only been here three months
That’s what I said to the CEO yesterday when he started to go on about wasn’t done yet.
I stayed pretty together, but I clearly had an emotional reaction.
Later today, I need to start getting my code tested. My wife is leaving for Europe for four days, but somehow we are on much better terms; rings on, etc.
There is this possibility that the me is embracing, that I can live in the movie at the same time that I wake up.
It is characteristic of my life right now that I have not had the time to right even though I have had the desire. I have been trying to right for the last three days and I have not. I have been occupied by my involvement in my men’s group, supporting my daughter, being with my wife - even if briefly, and trying to debug my code.
The thing with the CEO if floating in the back of my mind because I want to give him what for, to tell him how I think his method is wrong and counter-productive, how it takes more than wishing we had quality to make it so. I want to tell him that the company has yet to produce anything that is quality and that it is amazing that he does not get it. That this needs to change if we are going to succeed. But the frontal assault will not work here; maybe it never works. My sense is that I need to bide my time, get things done and get some credibility. Trouble is I keep drowning in the things to do, and I don’t have the energy that I used to have, I need to get the guys that work for me to live and breath on another level; I have to challenge them at each turn but never denigrate their efforts. Time will tell how well I do. I think this will become a subject for this journal, I will try to uncover what works and what does not in this endeavor. Rick would be proud of me. (I will talk about Rick some other time, he had a big affect on an earlier me.)
r.slime.
That’s what I said to the CEO yesterday when he started to go on about wasn’t done yet.
I stayed pretty together, but I clearly had an emotional reaction.
Later today, I need to start getting my code tested. My wife is leaving for Europe for four days, but somehow we are on much better terms; rings on, etc.
There is this possibility that the me is embracing, that I can live in the movie at the same time that I wake up.
It is characteristic of my life right now that I have not had the time to right even though I have had the desire. I have been trying to right for the last three days and I have not. I have been occupied by my involvement in my men’s group, supporting my daughter, being with my wife - even if briefly, and trying to debug my code.
The thing with the CEO if floating in the back of my mind because I want to give him what for, to tell him how I think his method is wrong and counter-productive, how it takes more than wishing we had quality to make it so. I want to tell him that the company has yet to produce anything that is quality and that it is amazing that he does not get it. That this needs to change if we are going to succeed. But the frontal assault will not work here; maybe it never works. My sense is that I need to bide my time, get things done and get some credibility. Trouble is I keep drowning in the things to do, and I don’t have the energy that I used to have, I need to get the guys that work for me to live and breath on another level; I have to challenge them at each turn but never denigrate their efforts. Time will tell how well I do. I think this will become a subject for this journal, I will try to uncover what works and what does not in this endeavor. Rick would be proud of me. (I will talk about Rick some other time, he had a big affect on an earlier me.)
r.slime.