I have a few things to say referring to writing or the lack of. . .

Its official I am a published author, and I have the book to prove it. I honestly thought that it would be more exciting. However I am sitting here looking at my book: a little blue the book is done, a little depressed that I have to walk away from my character Lyric that I ( Read more... )

I have to write this up quickly before I turn on all of the lights and clean the living room.

I have learned a few things about myself this weekend. . .

Well, first of all . . . in many of my previous blogs I have mentioned whether or not I want a kid. . . I am currently in the mood where I do not. I feel wishy-washy about so many things. . . I ( Read more... )

What the hell? Why was it that the past few months I was so horny I couldn’t get enough and now I feel like I don’t even want to be touched?

I don’t feel pretty. I don’t feel attractive. Laughter has been the only thing that has gotten me from A to B.

I think I have lost maybe 10 pounds, but I want to lose a lot more. I want to get out more.

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My Updated Warning

This is a copy of the original dated June 6, 2006 http://rebekah1213.livejournal.com/145028.html

Lets see what has changed; shall we. (First all the original was three pages long. Red is added, Blue is changed)

June 22, 2011

My Warning

I was thinking for anyone who hangs out with me or dates me, you must be forewarned.

I’m ( Read more... )

I am sitting here alone: hurt, upset, in pain, embarrassed, frustrated, depressed, lonely, angry, irked, and I really can’t think straight.

Well, the good news out of all this. . . I finished my book yesterday, but I don’t even feel I can truly enjoy it right now.

Yesterday, Tom had a wrestling practice and working out with a group of guys that ( Read more... )

I really didn't want to be negative on the blog anymore. . . I wanted to figure out a positive, expressive way to relive my stress, but that is just not going to work right now. I am so stress I am making myself phyiscally hot. If it could steam would be pouring out my ears like a train at the station.

The worst part of all this is that today ( Read more... )

There is so much going on with father, brothers and my (ex) stepmother . . .

In September, my father filed for divorce which has just gotten nastier and nastier. My (ex) stepmother’s lawyer is trying to fight with and get the boy out of home schooling. The boys like their schooling (or at least they told me that did.)

Let me step back and explain ( Read more... )

Well, I have a lot to write on my family so I am dividing them into several blogs.

First blog is about my 26 year old brother. . . If you have read some of my previous blogs than you would know that I ask for positive vibes, prayers, spells, and optimistic thoughts toward him as he had an infection from his teeth which went to his heart and lungs ( Read more... )

I feel like I am sitting in a class that I am unprepared for and the teacher just handed me a test that is worth 100% of the year grade-a test I did NOT study for-on material I know nothing about. In fact the test doesn’t even look like it is in my familiar language.

My head is spinning; my stomach had butterflies, my head throbs, my left ear ( Read more... )

Its 3 am in few hours I am going to go take a shower and go to bed. Dishes are done and I am 5,483 words ahead than I was the last time I wrote a blog.

My story has been playing in my mind like a movie and I have been able to push TV to just outside noise. I just want to at least these three things each day so that I feel productive, especially in ( Read more... )