well i  moved out, went to a detox center and moved back in to my parents house till i move to toronto. i also have a new journal this one has way to many painful memories and way to many horrible stories in it. add me if you want to.

http:/ifwallsspoke.livejournal.com

I feel empty like i've done some thing horribly though i know i havent. I mean i know I'm sick i enjoy it thought but no child should have to live through what i am I mean when you have the junk like is great but when you don't have anything you body craves for it or practicly shuts down. you begin vomiting and you shake so much you feel like you ( Read more... )

 God i  am so fucking tweeked out right now i have to be some what detoxed for my "surgery" tomorrow i am so jonesing right now gah! well ryan id borrowing his friends car and we are heading to the city a night early we are going to stay at a friends house tonight yeah so nothing has really changed same day differnt bottel and different drug.

yup hospitol called today said I have to go for blood work. nope not going! I hate going to there. my arms cleaned up nicely though. Work sucks ass so much though i mean litteraly I can't wait for this summer to come when i move back to toronto. and get ready to go to school its so exciting ( Read more... )

Its sick how i have become the old me. but I was happy then and I am happy now. I guess i prefer to be a junkie. aleast i know it won't last long.  I mean either i'm saved or taken... no one would notice any way.

Well Just spent my whole day in the hospital! Woot... I'm fucking jonesin and Ryan isn't home from work with his shit yet. I am so freaked out right now I just need some blow and a good place to hide. I'm off work tomorrow and so is ryan so we'll probably just smoke up all day. I can't wait. oh so yeah I totaly like scratchd up my arm real bad last ( Read more... )

I got drunk, verry high, and angry. woot  like I am now ( Read more... )

Ever think you read certain things just cause you having a bad day and some power need to make it worse.

Why do things like that keep being shoved in to my face.

Why can't I move on.

What have I done wrong.

Just erase him is what I am going to do.

Is there any one out there.

Its been almost 4 months apparently hes over it and I'm not.
Every time I ( Read more... )

Yup my old cell is back up and running woot. Called my mom the other day let her know I was still okay and to check up on her. I told her That I got in to college. Yup you read that right I got accepted to my Behavioral science and Technology course I start Sept 4th. Woot! I am looking for anouther job. hopefully I can find one Because I got fired ( Read more... )

yeah so  I moved out last week and it wasn't on good terms. My dad hit me again, sept this time its really bad. I went to turn away from him and he still had my wrist in his hand so I ended up fractoring my wrist. i've got a pretty good bruise under my eye cause of the way he slaped me. I knew his drinking was getting bad again and i know I'm ( Read more... )