every body gets high

[ravendesent]

I feel empty like i've done some thing horribly though i know i havent. I mean i know I'm sick i enjoy it thought but no child should have to live through what i am I mean when you have the junk like is great but when you don't have anything you body craves for it or practicly shuts down. you begin vomiting and you shake so much you feel like you are about to break in half. a small child should not  have to go through that and . I wont have it.

I did some thing i shouldn't have and it was a horrible idea I re added anthony to my msn and was stupid enough to acctualy talk to him. it just makes me sick seeing him there makes me upset and then ryan gets angry at me. ryan and I arn't even together i mean i am pretty sure hes just there cause i need some one there when i am really high  i mean i get paranoid and have done things that i can't have happening on my own.  it sickens me to the point i can only deal with my self when i am high. I am pretty sure i do them just to stop the withdrawls.

why am i so hung up on him?

I miss my friends who hate to see me like this 
and i miss my mother who i can't see because of my father.
i am away from one man who beat me and found anouther.

I wanna go home to when i was 6

I don't want to die out here in the valley
Waiting for my luck to change
And I just want my dad to know
That I finally made it...

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold

I don't want to die out here in the valley
You don't have to lie,
I know that's what I'll do
I don't want my mom to know
That I never loved my life
And I sold my soul

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low

And everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low

Well you don't know how to get back to your crawlspace
Underneath the dirt and the rust and the waste
But the sun sets fast these days.

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van--

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys, oh

Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys