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mariĥuano
Leah is away at a women's retreat in north New Jersey. I am home alone. Not alone, but I'm with the cats. Friday night was a bit rough because of a seed which was planted in my head. Second or third weekend of February Edna texts me out of the blue asking about the phrase "topping from the bottom". I wake up, find the text, then call her despite it ( Read more... ) -
en alia novaĵo...
I have been writing more, but mostly on Twitter and on Slowly. Slowly is an app where people find pen pals across the globe. Rather than a message being instantly delivered, there's a significant time delay between sending and receiving a message. I think I've made a friend in Italy through Slowly ( Read more... ) -
pri verkado
Longa antaŭe mi memoras kunparoli eksamikon. Mi diris ke mi pensas ke mi nur verkas se mi pensas ke mi verkas pro amiko ol kelka (anonima) spektaro. Se mi pripensas tiun spektaro tiam mi pensos ke la spektaro ne havas ajn amikojn sed homoj kiu ne zorgas pri mi aŭ mia verkado aŭ malamikoj. Se mi verkas por amikoj, la vortoj fluas kaj rakontoj formas ( Read more... ) -
pluva monto
Ardent readers of my late and lamented site heptapod.org will remember the constant oneiric references to Rainy Mountain ( Read more... ) -
jes mi faris
I logged into Facebook three times today in hopes of seeing there was some manner of acknowledgement of my attempts to contact someone ( Read more... ) -
i am going to hell anyway, right?
So I gave up self-abuse, bread, pasta, sugary soda, and contacting one person for Lent. I don't identify as Catholic nor anything approaching Catholic, yet I think the idea behind Lent is meaningful ( Read more... ) -
let's see what i remember
The running theme in last night's dream is that I'm not really remembering dreams anymore. Merely impressions. When I was dreaming, I was trying to get in some house. First I tried climbing over a flimsy wall which couldn't support my weight, plus my arms didn't feel strong enough to heft me over anyway. I do recall reaching over the wall to pick ( Read more... ) -
karesmo ekas
Lent begins tomorrow. I'm giving up bread, pasta, cookies, sugary soda, masturbation, and I've blocked Edna's phone number from contact me by phone/text. I don't use Facebook and she never uses Snapchat so those don't matter.. No, I'm not Catholic, but I appreciate the whole going-without aspect of this time period. I'm not giving up Twitter ( Read more... ) -
alia perspektivo
Last year was a banner year for me. I was more social, I felt like I was able to function as a man, and generally felt happier as a human being ( Read more... ) -
A Narcissist's Prayer
That didn't happen.
And if it did, it wasn't that bad.
And if it was, that's not a big deal.
And if it is, that's not my fault.
And if it was, I didn't mean it.
And if I did...
You deserved it.