I have developed agoraphobia. I no longer leave my house. The T.V. is my only friend. The band is basically over. No job. No future. But the T.V. never turns me down. Ah my soft little addiction. Gotta go, T.V. is waiting.)

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Nothing's changed.)

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I am tired of updating my Live Journal. I never have anything positive to say, so this has just become a written reminder of all of the things that I have come to hate. I don't know if I am going to work tonight or not. I have become agoraphobic or something in that sense. I can no longer enter that fucking building. I haven't been to work in ( Read more... )

Today, I think I experienced my first panic attack. Is this what it feels like to go crazy. I was just sitting there at my Shite telemarketing job when everything when to shit. Every sound like explosions in my ears. I felt the room crushing in around me. My head pounded like something was hatching in my mind. It felt like there was a vice ( Read more... )

My friend searched her name on google.com and posted the best picture she found. This inspired me to do the same. Enjoy.


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I haven't logged on here in quite a while. To all of my friends I sincerely apologize. I lost my job where I had internet access. I am now off to my new job. I sold my fucking soul. I am now, and I suppose I always will be, unhappy. Sorry to let you all down. NOW ON WITH THE SHOW!!!(sounds of crowds cheering slowly being replaced by sounds ( Read more... )

Well, it seems that I am the very reason why the world is dying. I am the reason that wars are fought. I am the reason that children die of starvation. I am the reason fires burn and buildings fall. I am the reason that good people die while corrupt people prosper. I am the reason that god has abandoned us and left it up to us to create our ( Read more... )

Being shy sucks ass. I wish I were more aggressive. Aggressive people always get what they want. They just take it. I try to get what I want through outdated methods. I am a failure as a normal human being. I don't think I was supposed to be with someone. I am just one of those people who grow old alone and end up managing some hotel or ( Read more... )

Well, tonight's the night. I start my first radio show. The show's name is Radioteque. It's on sunday from 8pm to 10pm. We will have a different local band on each week. Tonight is our beta test night. Next week is our official first show. Next week we will have our first guest No Louder Than Leaves. I am so excited and nervous at the same ( Read more... )

This article as well, has nothing to do with lauren. I hate lauren. Lauren is the poop queen. Lauren has the rigid standards of the devil. And she french kissed Hitler. Ok, i hate this article. I will make a better one someday.

Lauren inspired me to write this. Lauren is so awesome!(she is holding a gun to my head.
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