I sometimes wonder why things worked out the way they did.
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Today marks the fifth anniversary of moms death. Days like today make me yearn to see her again. I am forgetting her laugh and the sound of her voice. Why does this have to be so hard? I feel like I still have a hole in my soul from when she died. But I sometimes wonder if that is normal or if I am taking it way to hard still. To say it was a ( Read more... )

I always get depressed whenever I come to this site. It makes me remember all of the joy and hope I had when I was younger. How I was going to college and get a good job and by the time I was 30 I was going to live with cats in my own apartment. Not trying college for the 3rd time, and leaving a 10 year relationship to start over ( Read more... )

It's hard to be friends when communication is going one way. Makes me wonder why I am trying so hard to hold on to something that is so one sided ( Read more... )

I have to keep remembering that I have no claim on you. I have to keep reminding myself that we never were anything more than friends who fooled around online. I have to keep reminding myself that when you said "love you" it was most likely ment as an endearment. Not realizing just how much power I put behind the word Love. I don't say it just ( Read more... )

I have tried to sleep. Infact I was so tired I couldn't keep my eyes open when I was eating dinner. Now it is 4am ( Read more... )

I went to fighter practice today and did some shield work. And damn do I need some work. I did enjoy it though. Little annoyed that I am not doing what I am being taught but still with unknowing using reflexes. This is going to be tough to break. I also need to make sure my shoulders get stretched out before I do anything. I don't need my ( Read more... )

I need a different outlet for my energies. Right now it has been the SCA. Learning new things. Becoming confident on my sewing machinene and meeting new people ( Read more... )

So after thinking and doing some fun searching of myself... because you know it's a never ending battle... I seriously think I suffer from seasonal depression. I find myself to be happier and not thinking as darkly as I was a few months ago. It could also be because March is almost over and I won't have to deal with it for a whole year. I am not ( Read more... )

A sleepless night, another broken heart. I can't stop thinking about why Iowa? Why not anywhere else in the world. The. She posted to your wall about love and gaming ( Read more... )