so......went to babysit the kids on friday....wasn't all that bad...maybe i should try being nice to them...it was partly working.....came home.....had the house to myself for a few hours....than ossession came over.....i love that man.....i would marry him if it weren't for a couple key reasons.....haha......so me jenna and david were here... ( Read more... )

hahaha.....well i dyed my hair blonde agian....i like....and as my mom said (shes been hitting the sauce) that i need to stop being so self esteem-less and saying fuck it i like it to everyone......haha.....she can be down right fun when she's hammered.....so tomorrow...another hell hole day with the devils spawn.....UGH......i honestly can't stand ( Read more... )

sorry for the last post....emo i know......i think it's a combo of either depression or pms.......who knows......i really don't know how i look....some days i look in the mirror and i'm like not bad...and other days i look in the mirror and i'm like i look like a man...and it also makes me feel down when i see my friends and they have like the ( Read more... )

so yah.....i basically came to the conclusion that even though i'm fat....even if i lost the weight i want......it doesn't really matter cause i'm not that attractive.....so whatever....i'm still gonna try my darndest to lose weight but it really isn't gonna change anything......i don't know if thats all from my hormones or if it's cause i have ( Read more... )

how do you add friends to this shit......i don't get it......i'm really reaching down in my brain and i just can't do it.......but anyhow.....yesterday was a fun fun fun affair...not really.....chilled with the parents took a couple naps....adn then sara was like hey lets go to see a cinderella story.....i was like k.....but i really don't like ( Read more... )

so anyhow......jenna came by and got us.....we went to target for my pads...and boy did i get jipped out.....they are like pads for if a baby got a period......mini-style.....phhh....got a harley davidson shirt in the little boys section...sexy.....and then we left.....and then we were hungry...we were gonna go to olive jardin....but then we were ( Read more... )

so look at this shiz....my picture.....oh i would soo do myself there....i love my webcam....it makes me look soo much better than i look i real life....and you gotta love that.....so right now me and sara are chilling in the house....jenna i suppose is gonna get us cause i need pads at target........and i am really debating if i wanan fgo back to ( Read more... )

i don't feel good....you know like that gross weak feeling you get when you are sick...that's how i feel right now.......and then i get waves where it feels like i might throw up and then they go away.......and then i'm all sweaty and stuff.....i don't like being sick.....

hahaha....well the past 2 days have been pretty uneventful.......on monday didn't do a whole lot......went around town with my mom....drove to elk grove and such.....hopped my very own median......almost crashed into somebodys car...and as my mom puts it i don't understand the meaning of 4 way stops and how they aren't all about me......phhhhh ( Read more... )

yeah well yesterday was fun.....the drunks got back so i wasn't really in the mood for a family night so keeley and sara came over around 7ish.....we went out to maxfields and ate....and we had this waiter........i struck up a conversation with him......i'm just a people person like that.....actually now that i mention it we make friends with a lot ( Read more... )