I want someone who loves me for this. Standing in sweats, cup of coffee in hand, making chocolate chip cookies on my day off. Sun streaming in through the windows with Bon Iver's Holocene playing in the background. My hair is a mess, I have no make-up on and the faint smell of sleep and last night's perfume lingers on my skin. I'm waiting ( Read more... )

Can I sink into my soul yet. Can I hide in my skin so no one can see? Here I am, I can't and I won't change for anyone. It's hard to keep this battle going of being confident in who I am and wanting no one to break me down at the same time. I feel strong and vulnerable at the same time.Not getting wrapped up in the game is the hardest part. That's ( Read more... )

Life moves so quickly when you're not paying attention. At times it catches you off guard. You get into a groove where you are moving through life as smoothly as you possibly can and then it happens. An event, a moment, a piece of information stops everything. Your new normal all of a sudden becomes so insignificant and your mind is flooded with ( Read more... )

A whole sea of emotions tend to swell up in a person when they are on the cusp of big changes. They make poor decisions, eat because they can't think of anything better to do and are completely content with just sitting with their own thoughts for hours. The problem is those thoughts can be self degrading and slowly break them down. Thinking, "why ( Read more... )

Loneliness has a tendency to creep up on you, crawl inside of your mind and cause an empty pain that is almost indescribable. I knew leaving college would be difficult but I never in all of my day dreams expected it to be this lonely. Although, I would have to say that in my younger years I also didn't envision an empty house where only my sister ( Read more... )

Can't say I've been in a place like this since maybe middle school.Uncontrollably pouring emotion into another without a clue as to why. It's rough when you connect on such an epic level with someone and you know they feel it too but you can't do anything about it. Maybe it just me. Everyone seems to be a fool for something. For me, when it comes ( Read more... )

I feel foolish for allowing myself to believe in boy. A "nice boy" gosh do I hate "nice boys" they seem to be the best at breaking hearts and being oblivious or completely insensitive to what they're doing. It may not be a direct intention but that doesn't make it any better. I wonder what I do to deserve such a level of disrespect. I'm left in ( Read more... )

I'm afraid to get hurt and yet I set myself up to be let down. I pride myself on having good morals and then I turn and throw them out the window when I feel like I will lose someones attention. It's wrong and it's taken me a while realize why I do it but, I fear that my personality is not enough to keep a guy. I practically throw myself at them in ( Read more... )

My timing always seems to be horrible. I feel as though no one in the world functions at the same level as I do. It makes me feel lonely at times. I'm tired of being nothing more than a pretty face. There are feelings behind these walls that I put up and they are hurt easily. A few hours of feeling good again has now lead to days of confusion and ( Read more... )

I wasn't looking for anything. I wore my jeans, plain white t-shirt and adidas indoors. I didn't put any perfume on and I forgot my deodorant. My hair was down and there was little make-up on my face. I wasn't looking for anything....and yet here I am sitting thinking about my decisions again.It seems as though I keep making the same poor choices ( Read more... )