He always seemed to have this tension for starting something inside himself. He was not content with just waking up, that would never do, he had to have a start to a day, something to tempt him forwards - sometimes even 1 foot forward, that step downwards, even on carpet, made his foot recoil backwards up his shin and into his groin, his body, ( Read more... )

she said that a sneeze was a personal thing for her, a little frill. it filled in a 'a blank', apparantly. knew me better for it. i kind of knew what she meant, and felt hot rouge blush upwards, surge. the next time we happened upon each other, it was twice as long as the period between the last two times. like these things go. we were paying for a ( Read more... )

So there i am waiting for this girl to arrive when a blindside hits the base of my neck. I spin around, ruffled spit flying round my head like twirls of kitestrings, all action and arms. There's nothing but a long, cool, shaft of grey metal indicating timeframes and logical routes out of here or there. The station roof is damp, it could've been ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just want to feel cold. I rush outside in the middle of the night. It helps sustain the emotion of the mood better - if it’s dark. Streets, casual, quiet. Where sudden background flashes of noise convey vivid short mental images of nearby plains, up, down and around your stance. Gone, quiet, again. The firmness and maturity of the ( Read more... )

"When one is trying to do something beyond his known powers it is useless to seek the approval of friends. Friends are at their best moments in defeat - at least that is my experience. Then they either fail you utterly or they surpass themselves. Sorrow is the great link - sorrow and misfortune. But when you are testing your powers, when you are ( Read more... )

How to make certain words seem fresh? I.E drugs, sleep, he, they, she, nostalgia, memories, naïve ( Read more... )

'She was at once dark and light. A ******* effect that was instantly captivating to the eye. There were blushes of rouge with glitter, there was stars and stripes at my window. Technicolor. She was petite but diametrically perfect, although I shudder to use such a mechanical and scientific word. Years of science for the sake of it has reduced ( Read more... )

Note to self: Do not look far into past entries or friends past entries. Chaos. Keep posting, no looking. I thought it would be bad doing that at 85 let alone 25! Oh, and lighter is of course, running out.

It is only with the stillness and the silence of a winters night - disturbed slightly by the flicker of candlelight - that one can fully realise the full cost of just asking for any lighter in any shop nowadays. Yes, it's a colour i do naturally recognise as being of this planet. Yes, I get a mini-torch and yes it refills, but not even at this ( Read more... )

'He had been at the bar for several hours, taking in the misplaced faces and traces of treacle - of so called humanity. Not that it didn’t interest him, but the general malaise of people in their bee-like swarms overpowered - and always had - his senses, finally numbing his brain down to a dull, dumb, rub of a nub. He would become just one more of ( Read more... )