So Dan got off work last night, went home, packed some more, and took care of some things on the phone with his mom. Then Christie got there and Dan and I had to wrap up our conversation. It was the most dramatic sign-off of my life. I started crying when he said he had to go soon. He signed off and I was BAWLING. Like couldn't control myself. I ( Read more... )

I'm a bit upset that Shannon and Will left for the beach house this morning and didn't say 'bye ( Read more... )

SO after no one was available last night and I sat around the house doing nothing, with nothing on TV, I was determined to hang out tonight. No one was hanging out. I called up Dan, and although he was almost falling asleep on the phone, he said we could chill for a little. We were in his room, he showed me his new toy, a better version of his ( Read more... )

God I want him back ( Read more... )

I don't think things look good for me and Dan and the near future. Even though he said we might get back together...I feel so discouraged I feel like with me out of the picture, he's getting into his new routine, not thinking of me a bit, and adjusting to his life without me pretty damn fast. I feel like even though it's been less than 2 weeks, ( Read more... )

So I got home and settled from work around 5pm, do stuff online, then start making plans for this evening, which I thought were going to be me showering, making mac n cheese w/ veggies and then meeting up with everyone for Jaime's play. Well I was put in charge of ordering pizzas, then had to shower, pick up the pizza, and drive over to the ( Read more... )

I just wanna be dating him again ( Read more... )

"Dan" (5:31:19 PM): i think it would almost be easier, even though i know you want to come with, if you went south to see your friends from home
Lek1221 (5:31:29 PM): Dan
Lek1221 (5:31:48 PM): Me, go south, and let my imagination play with the idea of you and christie in a room together for a week?
Lek1221 (5:31:55 PM):
Lek1221 (5:32:09 PM): and the ( Read more... )

Wow, I feel like my last post pretty much says it all.

I still feel pretty weak and pathetic as a person.

I'm good at art supposedly, and now I have an easel and palette so I don't really have an excuse EXCEPT - I'm not inspired to draw/paint anything. What good is this 'talent' if I can't use it?

Still questioning this Hospitality Major.
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So I guess I'm always worried that things are worse or going to be worse than they are ( Read more... )