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"Dan" (5:31:19 PM): i think it would almost be easier, even though i know you want to come with, if you went south to see your friends from home
Lek1221 (5:31:29 PM): Dan
Lek1221 (5:31:48 PM): Me, go south, and let my imagination play with the idea of you and christie in a room together for a week?
Lek1221 (5:31:55 PM):
Lek1221 (5:32:09 PM): and the idea of what I'd think I'd be missing out on
Lek1221 (5:32:30 PM): explaining to other people you're on a cruise with another girl
Lek1221 (5:32:46 PM): i'd be drinking ALOT at home
Lek1221 (5:32:53 PM): probably, not actually
"Dan" (5:32:56 PM): understandable... but i thought about it more and i do think there would be some weirdness... i just wouldn't want to ruin everybody's time together...
Lek1221 (5:33:53 PM): why would it be weird? wouldn't it depend on the 21 yr i bring? like i got a guy to go, you'd room with him, and THAT'd be weird....but...that's what you get
Lek1221 (5:34:27 PM): I dunno, I want to go, this just blows
Goddddddd this hurts so bad. I REALLY want to go.
Dan breaks up with me... and I get kicked off the cruise??? God I feel like crying so bad right now. Would it really be more awkward with me than without me? Wouldn't it be weird having everyone BUT me? And 2 weeks is a long time, we could be back together or friends by then, I don't think it will be THAT awkward. Dammit. I don't want to go South, it wasn't in my plans. I don't want to sit around my house all day and hope other people want to hang out with me when they're not hanging out with their other friends or family. This sucks, this sucks, this sucks! Fuck. ...fuck... :(
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Lek1221 (10:07:19 PM): Hey, I've been talking with my sister throughout the day cause i wanted her to go on the cruise, and she think's I'm getting the shit end of the stick, being one getting dumped and then kicked off the cruise just because Dan thinks it may be awkward.
Lek1221 (10:07:19 PM): Well, I don't think it's fair. That was my spring break plan and I want to go.
Lek1221 (10:08:08 PM): And I don't think finding a 21 yr old should only be MY responsibility, as like a "how much do you want to go" because I didn't do anything wrong, Dan just DECIDED that I shouldn't be allowed to go.
Lek1221 (10:08:45 PM): So I think I'm gonna need help from you and Dan to get someone to go with me. If it's a guy, they can room with Dan and you and I can room together.
Lek1221 (10:09:11 PM): But all the pressure shouldn't be put on me, I have just as much right to go as Dan does, he just happens to be 21
Lek1221 (10:09:44 PM): SORRY I blurted that all out, it's been pent up all day
"Christie" (10:10:32 PM): i know it was your spring break plans, and i saw ur lj about it witht eh convo u had with him
"Christie" (10:13:00 PM): but a)i dont know anyone over 21 who would want to go really or that i would want to go cuz theres no1 else in our group b) u said urself that ur relationship with me and shannon is didfferent lately and while we arent acting any different you seem to think we are so it might be awkward and c) maybe you and dan jsut need some time apart cuz right now jsut talking here and there and not hanigng out is sorta leaving u not knowing what to expect...i'm nto tryign to sound liek a bitch or anything im jsut laying it out whats in my head right now
"Christie" (10:13:48 PM): dont take it as me saying i dont want you to come i'm saying there would prolly be awkwardness
Lek1221 (10:14:05 PM): It's 2 weeks away though.
Lek1221 (10:14:19 PM): I'm sure you me and shan will han gout by then and things will be fine
Lek1221 (10:14:43 PM): and then Dan...he and I need to have a talk and see eachohter in person...soon. He and I will deal with our own issues.
Lek1221 (10:15:19 PM): As for 21 yr olds....no one from work? ambassadors? School? God,I was even thinking of asking Brendan.
"Christie" (10:15:36 PM): y ask some1 random tho
Lek1221 (10:15:44 PM): so i can go
"Christie" (10:15:45 PM): that would end up being an issue too
Lek1221 (10:15:51 PM): the whole point is that I really want to
"Christie" (10:16:14 PM): yes but ur saying put brendan or whoever and have him stay wiht dan well dan doesnt know him
Lek1221 (10:16:22 PM): i shouldnt get screwed just because Dan was 21 and bought the tickets
Lek1221 (10:16:34 PM): That's Dan's problem though for counting me out
"Christie" (10:16:51 PM): u told me last ngiht that u had said to him u didnt want to go if u guys broke up
Lek1221 (10:16:54 PM): Dan broke up with me and then kicks me while I'm down telling me I shouldn't go on the cruise
"Christie" (10:16:57 PM): so he prolly went with that
Lek1221 (10:17:38 PM): ONLY IF I hadn't told him days before he bought them, that i wanted to go.
"Christie" (10:18:17 PM): but there were no 3 sleepers left unless they were really expensive
Lek1221 (10:18:36 PM): but - please don't take offense to this -- why should you go any more than i should?
"Christie" (10:18:40 PM): u both want to go so what was he supposed to do jsut not buy tickets
Lek1221 (10:18:46 PM): which why i think it's fair to help me find someone
"Christie" (10:18:47 PM): i'm nto saying i should
"Christie" (10:19:51 PM): but i dont see y its put on me to help, somehow i'm in the middle of this
Lek1221 (10:20:06 PM): Dan too, he's just not picking up his phone
"Christie" (10:20:45 PM): i said i could go and wanted to, you 2 broke up and he bought the tickets in a way it seems liek ur mad at me for going when i had no involvement with your guys issues
Lek1221 (10:20:59 PM): NO! That's not it!
Lek1221 (10:23:27 PM): I want...help. I reeeally want to go, I got pushed out of this without being asked...Dan's gonna come over (I wa son the phone with him just now, that's why pause in the convo)...I just think we all need to work something out...together. Christie, I hope you know I'm not mad at you, I love you, you're like my best friend up here.
Lek1221 (10:24:13 PM): I'm just...thoroughly upset, cause I feel like Dan keeps hitting me while I'm down, or right when I think things are picking up.
Lek1221 (10:24:31 PM): and he gets to go on the cruise just because eh's 21
Lek1221 (10:24:49 PM): really, i think you and I should go and Dan fend for himself, but that's impossible
Lek1221 (10:25:32 PM): Though -- still - I don't really have any ill-wishes for him either, I don't hate him or anything, this particular situation is just...overwhelming
Lek1221 (5:31:29 PM): Dan
Lek1221 (5:31:48 PM): Me, go south, and let my imagination play with the idea of you and christie in a room together for a week?
Lek1221 (5:31:55 PM):
Lek1221 (5:32:09 PM): and the idea of what I'd think I'd be missing out on
Lek1221 (5:32:30 PM): explaining to other people you're on a cruise with another girl
Lek1221 (5:32:46 PM): i'd be drinking ALOT at home
Lek1221 (5:32:53 PM): probably, not actually
"Dan" (5:32:56 PM): understandable... but i thought about it more and i do think there would be some weirdness... i just wouldn't want to ruin everybody's time together...
Lek1221 (5:33:53 PM): why would it be weird? wouldn't it depend on the 21 yr i bring? like i got a guy to go, you'd room with him, and THAT'd be weird....but...that's what you get
Lek1221 (5:34:27 PM): I dunno, I want to go, this just blows
Goddddddd this hurts so bad. I REALLY want to go.
Dan breaks up with me... and I get kicked off the cruise??? God I feel like crying so bad right now. Would it really be more awkward with me than without me? Wouldn't it be weird having everyone BUT me? And 2 weeks is a long time, we could be back together or friends by then, I don't think it will be THAT awkward. Dammit. I don't want to go South, it wasn't in my plans. I don't want to sit around my house all day and hope other people want to hang out with me when they're not hanging out with their other friends or family. This sucks, this sucks, this sucks! Fuck. ...fuck... :(
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Lek1221 (10:07:19 PM): Hey, I've been talking with my sister throughout the day cause i wanted her to go on the cruise, and she think's I'm getting the shit end of the stick, being one getting dumped and then kicked off the cruise just because Dan thinks it may be awkward.
Lek1221 (10:07:19 PM): Well, I don't think it's fair. That was my spring break plan and I want to go.
Lek1221 (10:08:08 PM): And I don't think finding a 21 yr old should only be MY responsibility, as like a "how much do you want to go" because I didn't do anything wrong, Dan just DECIDED that I shouldn't be allowed to go.
Lek1221 (10:08:45 PM): So I think I'm gonna need help from you and Dan to get someone to go with me. If it's a guy, they can room with Dan and you and I can room together.
Lek1221 (10:09:11 PM): But all the pressure shouldn't be put on me, I have just as much right to go as Dan does, he just happens to be 21
Lek1221 (10:09:44 PM): SORRY I blurted that all out, it's been pent up all day
"Christie" (10:10:32 PM): i know it was your spring break plans, and i saw ur lj about it witht eh convo u had with him
"Christie" (10:13:00 PM): but a)i dont know anyone over 21 who would want to go really or that i would want to go cuz theres no1 else in our group b) u said urself that ur relationship with me and shannon is didfferent lately and while we arent acting any different you seem to think we are so it might be awkward and c) maybe you and dan jsut need some time apart cuz right now jsut talking here and there and not hanigng out is sorta leaving u not knowing what to expect...i'm nto tryign to sound liek a bitch or anything im jsut laying it out whats in my head right now
"Christie" (10:13:48 PM): dont take it as me saying i dont want you to come i'm saying there would prolly be awkwardness
Lek1221 (10:14:05 PM): It's 2 weeks away though.
Lek1221 (10:14:19 PM): I'm sure you me and shan will han gout by then and things will be fine
Lek1221 (10:14:43 PM): and then Dan...he and I need to have a talk and see eachohter in person...soon. He and I will deal with our own issues.
Lek1221 (10:15:19 PM): As for 21 yr olds....no one from work? ambassadors? School? God,I was even thinking of asking Brendan.
"Christie" (10:15:36 PM): y ask some1 random tho
Lek1221 (10:15:44 PM): so i can go
"Christie" (10:15:45 PM): that would end up being an issue too
Lek1221 (10:15:51 PM): the whole point is that I really want to
"Christie" (10:16:14 PM): yes but ur saying put brendan or whoever and have him stay wiht dan well dan doesnt know him
Lek1221 (10:16:22 PM): i shouldnt get screwed just because Dan was 21 and bought the tickets
Lek1221 (10:16:34 PM): That's Dan's problem though for counting me out
"Christie" (10:16:51 PM): u told me last ngiht that u had said to him u didnt want to go if u guys broke up
Lek1221 (10:16:54 PM): Dan broke up with me and then kicks me while I'm down telling me I shouldn't go on the cruise
"Christie" (10:16:57 PM): so he prolly went with that
Lek1221 (10:17:38 PM): ONLY IF I hadn't told him days before he bought them, that i wanted to go.
"Christie" (10:18:17 PM): but there were no 3 sleepers left unless they were really expensive
Lek1221 (10:18:36 PM): but - please don't take offense to this -- why should you go any more than i should?
"Christie" (10:18:40 PM): u both want to go so what was he supposed to do jsut not buy tickets
Lek1221 (10:18:46 PM): which why i think it's fair to help me find someone
"Christie" (10:18:47 PM): i'm nto saying i should
"Christie" (10:19:51 PM): but i dont see y its put on me to help, somehow i'm in the middle of this
Lek1221 (10:20:06 PM): Dan too, he's just not picking up his phone
"Christie" (10:20:45 PM): i said i could go and wanted to, you 2 broke up and he bought the tickets in a way it seems liek ur mad at me for going when i had no involvement with your guys issues
Lek1221 (10:20:59 PM): NO! That's not it!
Lek1221 (10:23:27 PM): I want...help. I reeeally want to go, I got pushed out of this without being asked...Dan's gonna come over (I wa son the phone with him just now, that's why pause in the convo)...I just think we all need to work something out...together. Christie, I hope you know I'm not mad at you, I love you, you're like my best friend up here.
Lek1221 (10:24:13 PM): I'm just...thoroughly upset, cause I feel like Dan keeps hitting me while I'm down, or right when I think things are picking up.
Lek1221 (10:24:31 PM): and he gets to go on the cruise just because eh's 21
Lek1221 (10:24:49 PM): really, i think you and I should go and Dan fend for himself, but that's impossible
Lek1221 (10:25:32 PM): Though -- still - I don't really have any ill-wishes for him either, I don't hate him or anything, this particular situation is just...overwhelming