So yeah, the bullshit is a flying and all at me, but thats ok. I done with trying to please people, I'm tired of putting aside what I want and what I think to make others feel better. Jamie seems to think that i said some stupid shit on her journal, then responds in anger and resentment, but then emails me and says happy new year? so I check it and ( Read more... )

Ok well now that i am calmed down.. I just wanted to say sorry for reacting the way I did... And I love you Keith and Always want to be with you.. I hope that you didn't that I was saying that i don't want to be with you.. I was really upset and i react really wrong when i am upset... I'm sorry.. please don't hate me.... Jamie i am sorry for the ( Read more... )

Ok.. when I finally let something out.... when i finally say something ... when I fuckin try and let people know how i am feeling.. it never turns out right.. no one ever understands where I am coming from.. man.. fuck, I mean yeah I have shit wrong with me and so does every other fuckin person I am not saying that I have the worst fuckin problems ( Read more... )

OK... i have bitched about fuckhead and tyler and CHrista...... Now it isn't bitch time anymore... Ok I am really happy for Jamie that her and ben got their apartment.... I know that I hurt your feelings hun.. I am sorry.. YOu know that i didn't mean to ... I was just venting.... but now.. i am scared that i won't see you ever.... by yourself.. ( Read more... )

OK before I go on with what has been going on in my head let me say this... if I say something offencive to anyone who reads this i am sorry... just hear me out, listen to my side... But wait..this is my journal...i am supposed to say what the hell is fuckin with my head right now.... Ok.. well first of all I am seriously confused....I don't get ( Read more... )

I had lots of stuff to do today and as i went to leave, I couldn't find my wallet anywhere, so I searched the house and my car like 12 times and still no wallet, well since i am pretty sensitive lately I started to cry, I have a lot of things in my wallet that mean stuff to me, plus really important things that I shouldn't drive with out...SOooo I ( Read more... )

So this is my first entery..Yay for me. I dunno..today was one of those days where everyone asks whats wrong and you say nothing when there is a million things...I've been on the depressive side more these days...I'm not really sure why. Maybe i made the wrong choice. Maybe I didn't and just think that i did..I dunno...I feel bad a lot of times ( Read more... )