i hate the world. friends only.

ok so i have to say that im somewhat proud of myself. i really think im making some real progress. i havent counted calories in a long time. i have been working out everyday and i was afraid that exercise would become my new obsession BUT today i decided that since i worked out pretty much all week, i don't have to today. i have been eating ( Read more... )

oh lordy...this tsunami disaster is so upsetting. there are more than 155,000 people dead, a ton more injured, 13,000 orphans, thousands of destroyed villages, ugh. people are fucking selling orphans as sex slaves!! thats so fucked up. as if they havent faced enough. this is so sad ( Read more... )

today is kicking my ass ( Read more... )

everyone is asleep and i have been lying in bed for about an hour staring at the ceiling, day-dreaming about the life i wish i had. it sucks that it will never come true. im not asking for much. i just want to be happy. but fuck...i am so depressed right now and i dont see that changing anytime soon.

my parents are jackasses. wow what a huge surprise.

my ipod is on shuffle and it just played three nmh songs in a row. i think its a sign from god. i dont know what that sign is supposed to mean but i think its a sign nonetheless ( Read more... )

and if she only really knew
one billion angels could come and save her soul
they could save her soul until she shines

i think thats such a beautiful lyric. it makes me cry when he sings it. god... jeff mangum is a fucking genius.

aahh im sick. yay.

i just checked my pulse and its a little less than fifty beats per minute. im pretty sure thats fucked up. anyways, im going to bed because the world is spinning. good night.

there are a lot of people in the world that have the ability to make me happy, sad, upset, angry etc...

but the people that i think affect me the most are my siblings and lately, they have been making me hate myself.