I hope that today was alright. Sometimes I never know if I am doing the right thing, but I just had this feeling this time, that I should not always be the person who sits back and deals. I just didn't want to do it anymore...I couldn't sleep last night, and I tried to convince myself that it would be alright. But now I don't know...after today I ( Read more... )

I'm working on being okay. The sign on my mirror says, "today is the day." I want it to be true. I want this to stop, and I want everything to go back to the way it was before. I hope we're on our way...

I miss you.

I miss it.

I miss...something that's hopefully worth holding onto.

heard it in the song when you call out...but I gotta say now, it's got to change, right now ( Read more... )

My birthday was fabulous, there is no two ways about it...I am glad that everyone could make it out, and that we had such a fun time, or at least I did! Pizza was tasty and the weather was just perfect for a bonfire! Smores and cake topped it all off, and I was just glad that I could see so many people...First off, seeing my jackson-brother for the ( Read more... )

watching someone else's pain, broadcast on live television, broadcast across the country, seems to make me relieve moments that I have not had broadcasted so intensely, but I have felt. Maybe I have not felt so deeply, but it has been there. This past week, it was two years. Two years of my life have gone by since that night, and for me it seems ( Read more... )

Don't give up on me ( Read more... )

sometimes when I really want to write I curse this old house with it's coldness. It is certainly very hard, indeed, to pour your emotions out onto the computer and tell everyone how you feel, when you are frozen solid. Today was a hard day. After weird dreams, it was nice to wake up and be able to go to Ann Arbor with my girl Brittany. Brother ( Read more... )

It’s fall. The fall came, today, out of the sky, with the movement of the high pressure systems and a little bribery of Mother Nature. The sky cleared its visage, and its beauty surpassed anything on this earth. The weather was right, and as I set out to conquer the bus system of Boston, I knew the day would bring great things ( Read more... )

Perfection within a room. That's what I was faced with. All of my friends, smiling at me, giving me encouragement, hugs, and love, radiating out of their minds, bodies, and souls, and I felt peace. Finally, throughout everything that had happened, I was finding some middle ground peace that was taking shape around my heart and pulling me into a ( Read more... )

Orange clumps of berries outside the window of Kelly Sue's room soothe my soul. The fan blowing on me cools my hot eyes, and I realize that I, too, shall get through this. This wasn't exactly the closure I was looking for, but I'll take what I can get. I am working on everything, and this is just one more reason that I want to be out of this place ( Read more... )