Hello sweet child. Happy birthday to you

Hannah, I care about you and my relationship with you so much. You are the definition of beautiful, strong, and courageous femininity to me. When I hear how your body, mind, and emotions have been treated in the past by wounded men, and a wounded mother, the disrespect, lack of safety, and pain that have been inflicted on you, every nurturing, ( Read more... )

Christian came over around 6. He brought me Molly, and himself ketamine, whippets, and weed.

I immediately felt his energy was not in tune with my intentions for Molly. It was clear he wanted to party and not facilitate. He nudged me a few times to taking it and enjoying the ride, but I didn't want to and reflected on that as much as I could. I'm ( Read more... )

Was in an accident today.

What does it mean?

Accidents are usually wake up calls.

It could've been so much worse.

What am I not seeing?

Spatial medicine ( Read more... )

Sweet. Addictive. Delicious. Oh so easy to crave.
It is what it is. That is all.

The fact is that everywhere I go I fall in love. Given the opportunity I form connections with women and fall for them. The thing is, I don't experience my love for them as personal - not in the sense of a personal and private affair, two egos in love, something special, exclusive and idealized. Instead, I simply feel love -- it's not impersonal, ( Read more... )

There are two major mistakes in scientific thought ( Read more... )

Nothing quite stirs emotion up in people like endings, departures, deaths. These are difficult times for me because on a deep level I don't relate to the concept of attachment in the same way as others ( Read more... )

All these science vs mysticism shows I've been watching - I Origins, OA, Dr Strange, Leftovers, etc. etc. - what it's pointing me to... and what Star Trek reminded me of, is that I am not going to live a life that is "spiritual" or "mystical" but one that is principled. A principled life like the life of Picard, like of Marcus Aurelius, like of ( Read more... )