I have been running away from responsibility. I manage to get things done but not at the level I know I am capable of. I have been running away while trying to keep up with everyone's expectations. In short, you can call me a flake-y people-pleaser ( Read more... )

I couldn't quite get the concept of "you being your biggest enemy" until recently. I've driven myself to a wall and pinned myself there. And the thought "so this is what rock bottom feels like" suddenly came to mind.

I made a discovery about the notion of rock bottom and how it is possible to actually put yourself there. I don't know quite how I've ( Read more... )

This is perhaps a procrastination attempt, of trying to get away from the constantly busy schedule. It could be a result of longing to return to my roots or of inspired writing like Ayisse's new postI've missed this place a lot. I've gotten so caught up with other things that I have honestly felt my heart slowly shut itself out from everything and ( Read more... )

Read, read, read. Read everything - trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You'll absorb it. Then write. If it is good, you'll find out. If it's not, throw it out the window. (William Faulkner)
An apprentice... perhaps it's time I took on that role?

I've ( Read more... )

It's not as dark as I thought it was going to be. Black Day seems like a rather morose name for Single Awareness Day. It does, as Carrie Bradshaw once said, feel like we're equating singlehood with being a leper.


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I just had to turn the weekend's KPop Star Tweets post over at FANGIRLDIARIES into something Japan-related with the recent and unfortunately ongoing disaster. And while it is still such a sad event, I've seen so many people get together to help. It has, like I mentioned in my previous entry displayed a rather beautiful side of human beings. While I ( Read more... )

My heart sunk to my stomach as I tried to catch glimpses of what was happening in Japan last Friday. I kept my eye's glued to the updates of some friends' and family who are in Japan. It left me feeling helpless, as a lot of us probably felt. But this is reality and a startling reminder of the power of Mother Earth and how we can just be wiped off ( Read more... )

I just want to write. Not think. Write. I've been doing too much thinking. I've been doing too much "doing" lately too. Enough. Or rather time out. No school, no work, no other engagements. Just stop. I let a month pass without giving any attention to my new little space here. Suffice to say that it makes me sad.

I am fully aware that it is ( Read more... )

I feel good. I can honestly say, in the core of my being, that I feel good about my life. It is interesting to feel the ebb and tide of worries as they flow through my mind and dissipate as fast as they come. I'm in a good place, in this moment and in whatever little time I have on this planet.

Work is good. I work for people I admire. In my ( Read more... )

I want to harness this feeling of positivity and optimism coursing through my veins. The hope I cling to for a fresh start is alive and kicking in my system. It definitely feels good to be alive. Now before you want to kick off your monitor screen permanently, I just want to say that I've always been optimistic (a lot of you know that) and I've ( Read more... )