charlie and i had a very nice walk tonight.  the rain was just finishing up outside, and it was in the 60's, i think.
we saw 2 pair of canada geese that already have goslings!  they're getting an early start this year.
the other day we saw turtles and a beaver dam.  and a couple days before that we saw at least half a dozen deer grazing in a field at ( Read more... )

last night's dream:
i had some sort of sickness.  i felt weak and tired, and every couple of hours my fever would spike and i would lose awareness.  i was told that i was actually hallucinating at these times.  a strange sort of hallucination, one that i could not recall after it was over.  one during which i was supposedly saying things and ( Read more... )

i'm so frustrated that i'm about to cry.  and you know why?  because i can't find my local on-demand cable listings online ( Read more... )

last night's dream:

i was really upset over some major conflict with my parents (lots of yelling and screaming and crying going on), and i emailed my therapist about it because i thought she would get an email sooner than a voice mail.  when i finally got in to see her, the only thing she was concerned about was how i got her email address.  then ( Read more... )

i just finished re-reading Love's Executioner by Irvin D. Yalom a few days ago.   there was a passage near the middle of the book that i particularly related to, so i dog-eared the page to come back to it after i finished reading the rest of the book.  then yesterday, i went back to that page and read that section again, and realized that it's the ( Read more... )

i'm seeing my psychiatrist again in two days.  this is the big he's-changing-my-meds-against-my-will appointment.  i haven't brought this up with my therapist recently because i'm tired of talking about it.  i've learned that how i feel about it is irrelevant.

i'm seeking the services of a hypnotist.

so i saw my therapist at 3pm today ( Read more... )

these past few days have been uneventful. i finished up my bake sale stuff on friday night, then sheila took it in for me on saturday morning. i don't remember the rest of the day ( Read more... )

last night i slept on 2 trazodone because i was tired at the end of the day... pretty much normal hours, but a bit on the low side and restless too. i got up to pee 3 or 4 times. i remember waking up once in the night and not being able to fall back asleep for quite a while, but i couldn't see the clock ( Read more... )

i dunno ( Read more... )