I feel so lazy not working. I'm stressing about stuff at work and it's my vacation. Stop it ( Read more... )

Hey guys! Damn why do I keep thinking today is Friday ( Read more... )

I know it's moving fast...incredibly fast.. I mean we are talking about moving in together. He lives in Poway I live in City Heights..He hates where I live, I hate where he lives (not the area, cause it's nice, but that it's so far), my lease is up in September, so it was decided, if we are still at this point, and still feel the way we feel now ( ( Read more... )

So I guess we're getting serious. We tried the "just friends" things for a week or so, and I was okay with that, I mean I didn't like the idea at first but it grew on me, then he said he couldn't do it anymore, he couldn't just be my fiend cause of the way he felt ( Read more... )

I wish he would stop asking me what I want from him. I keep telling him nothing, I don't want anything from you. Then he goes, so you'd be fine if we didn't see each other anymore? I say well no, but Id' get over it, but thats not what I meant by I don't want anything. I really don't. I don't want a damn thing, and will not ever ask for anything. I ( Read more... )

So I get a call lastnight as I'm at my friends house, waiting for Charlene to call and tell me to meet her in PB. It's W. and he wanted me to drop everything and go see him. I told him I did want to see him, but it's too early, I have plans with my friends, i can't bail on her. i never flake, not only that but me and Charlene just had a whole ( Read more... )

Man o man. Whats a girl to do? I saw W. again yesterday…actually been seeing a bit too much of him lately. I've been doing everything I can to brush it aside, and distract myself...I can't say that it's working too well though. I just know that I feel more and more vulnerable and exposed, and that is exactly what I don't want. But that makes ( Read more... )

I'm feeling things I don't want to, cause it makes me lose the grip I have on my control.  I like having control of my life and my emotions, I like keeping it all in check, it makes me feel all warm and safe inside.  But that is quickly fading away and I don't want it to.  I need the security of my indifference back.  What happened to my " ( Read more... )