:; It's all I hear...Don't you hate when you write out a post and then it refreshes and you lose everything you wrote ( Read more... )

:; Promise me that it won't be forever...I'm 32. I'm trying to get my life back on track. I spoke to my psychiatrist and we're going to try a new medicine. Though I wish I could change my pristiq but we know it will be hard since that is a difficult one to stop. Hopefully this new medicine works otherwise I'm going to ask to switch the other. I ( Read more... )

:; Their silence is loud...Here I am at the age of 31 feeling as if I've never accomplished anything and I never will. For as long as I can remember, I have been pushing, and trying, and having many breakdowns, but still finding a way to go on ( Read more... )

:; I only found a prison.I thought I finally had it right. I did... But it seems that life just doesn't want me to be happy. I keep thinking I'm making the right choices and then it blows up in my face. What am I supposed to do? I don't know how to have a happy life, I don't know how to be successful ( Read more... )

:; If the shoe fits walk in it till your heels break...I was productive today and I'm going to choose to be proud of that. I should do some more editing and writing but I'm happy that I did something today. Trying a new depression medicine added on to my others so hopefully I'll start being more productive. But I know it's not just medicine that ( Read more... )

:; or does she not see it that way?Today I'm 31... I'm okay with that. I had a good day, it was fun. Escape room, olive garden, Ulta beauty, cookie cake. Grateful for another year... And yet here I feel so sad... It has nothing to do with my birthday. It was a great day ( Read more... )

:; but you were a lie too...I'm laying in bed wishing I had the energy to wake earlier. I used to get out of bed around 7:30-8am. Now? Past 9am everyday. When I work I wake at 6am but cannot do that on off days. I am always so exhausted. My depression meds aren't really doing anything for me anymore... I hardly want to write or workout. I have ( Read more... )

And the magics not here no more...My depression has been bad this week. I lack inspiration and motivation. I feel as if my writing has been lacking too. Why must I always feel this emptiness? Why can this not be enough? Why does this hole never fade ( Read more... )

:; It's inside of you...It's a beautiful day outside. Not too hot. I was actually quite productive today, to my surprise. I've been riding and even though I don't feel it's the best writing I'm still doing it. I also did a workout. Force myself to do this workout and I modified a lot but I still did it. And now I'm trying to get my steps in. It is ( Read more... )

:; Or is it closing?

Was I productive enough today? I don't feel as if I were. But I did do productive things. I wish I wasn't so hard on myself. I wish things were enough. I've fallen behind with weight loss and gained a couple of pounds back. It's frustrating but it's my own fault. I have to do better. I have to be better.

I wish I was better