:; I can hear the ballots
:; Their silence is loud...
Here I am at the age of 31 feeling as if I've never accomplished anything and I never will. For as long as I can remember, I have been pushing, and trying, and having many breakdowns, but still finding a way to go on.
I'm exhausted. How many times am I going to keep trying and failing? Will there ever be a day were something actually works out and doesn't blow up in my face? I don't want much. But I feel like nothing's ever going to change. I'm so tired... I know it could be worse and I feel guilty.
I wish I wasn't wasting my youth in such solitude of sorrow.
Here I am at the age of 31 feeling as if I've never accomplished anything and I never will. For as long as I can remember, I have been pushing, and trying, and having many breakdowns, but still finding a way to go on.
I'm exhausted. How many times am I going to keep trying and failing? Will there ever be a day were something actually works out and doesn't blow up in my face? I don't want much. But I feel like nothing's ever going to change. I'm so tired... I know it could be worse and I feel guilty.
I wish I wasn't wasting my youth in such solitude of sorrow.