:; You feel this emotion?
:; Promise me that it won't be forever...
I'm 32. I'm trying to get my life back on track. I spoke to my psychiatrist and we're going to try a new medicine. Though I wish I could change my pristiq but we know it will be hard since that is a difficult one to stop. Hopefully this new medicine works otherwise I'm going to ask to switch the other. I just want to feel calm. I know medicine isn't 100% and you have to fight the battle yourself too. But damn medicine's the only motivation that works.
I'm trying to focus on working out and eating better again. I've gained so much weight back and I feel so weak and pathetic. I'm trying to learn self-compassion and it's been so difficult. My mind always seems to be racing and I always feel as if I'm never doing enough. It's a shame that I feel this way because no one should. I hate that I'm 32 and I'm still affected by childhood abuse. It isn't fair! Because I know what's wrong and I know how to fix it and yet my mind fights me.
How can the human body and mind be so dumb? It thinks it's protecting me by trying to keep me hibernating and lazy but it's not. I have to force myself to be productive and work out and eat better. I know in the long run I'll think myself. I want to be 85 one day and I know I won't be in perfect health but I want to be able to still go outside and enjoy a nice kayaking trip.
I want to take care of myself. I want to show myself that I do love me.
I'm 32. I'm trying to get my life back on track. I spoke to my psychiatrist and we're going to try a new medicine. Though I wish I could change my pristiq but we know it will be hard since that is a difficult one to stop. Hopefully this new medicine works otherwise I'm going to ask to switch the other. I just want to feel calm. I know medicine isn't 100% and you have to fight the battle yourself too. But damn medicine's the only motivation that works.
I'm trying to focus on working out and eating better again. I've gained so much weight back and I feel so weak and pathetic. I'm trying to learn self-compassion and it's been so difficult. My mind always seems to be racing and I always feel as if I'm never doing enough. It's a shame that I feel this way because no one should. I hate that I'm 32 and I'm still affected by childhood abuse. It isn't fair! Because I know what's wrong and I know how to fix it and yet my mind fights me.
How can the human body and mind be so dumb? It thinks it's protecting me by trying to keep me hibernating and lazy but it's not. I have to force myself to be productive and work out and eat better. I know in the long run I'll think myself. I want to be 85 one day and I know I won't be in perfect health but I want to be able to still go outside and enjoy a nice kayaking trip.
I want to take care of myself. I want to show myself that I do love me.