Hibiscus came into my room to let me know some mundane thing. Then he noticed my mood.
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"Are you okay?" he asked.
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"I'm moping," I said.
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"Why?" he asked.
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"Because of Zoharra. I feel so torn up about her. I keep thinking about her, but I can't bring myself to message her. What happened with Oryx feels like it is repeating itself because I don't have ( Read more... )

On October 15th 2016 I arrived at Metheus's and Zoharra's place. I was relieved that they could ramble like normal left-brained people, because I seriously wasn't ready to dive into an emotional whirlwind the moment I arrived. I wanted time to feel them, to see them at the surface before diving beneath the waves. I didn't need much of that - ( Read more... )

Tuesday, October 4th 2016
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I told Paladin about the spiders on Tuesday morning, and my worry that Hibiscus wouldn't be happy about my choice to visit Metheus.
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"I would be sad if your relationship with Metheus somehow hurt Hibiscus, even if it didn't hurt me directly," Paladin said. Hearing Paladin's words warmed my heart. He loves his metamour, I ( Read more... )

Monday, October 3rd 2016
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I felt lethargic on Monday morning. I proposed to myself that I needed self-care and spent time taking deep breaths on Hibiscus's balcony and then soaked in the bathtub. Paladin spent time cleaning things that he brought from Snowland.
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That night I felt terribly lonely. Paladin went to bed early, Metheus wasn't still around ( Read more... )

Sunday, October 2nd 2016
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Eagle made me tea. I pulled out of the fridge a pint-and-a-half jar full of raw goat milk and thawed raspberries and ate them for breakfast. Eagle's room-mate joined us. My memory told me that she was vegan. I wondered how she felt about my goat milk, but she didn't comment on it.
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Eagle and I went back into his room after ( Read more... )

A trip from Silverstag Eco Hamlet to Snowland with Paladin and talking about Metheus. A raw potluck reuniting me with old friends which included a powerful experience with Gavreel. Then a night beside Eagle, a lover of mine from 2014 who I had not seen in over a year. ( Read The Story )

Tuesday night I struggled to fall asleep. Hibiscus's words from Sunday's phone conversation, "I miss you missing me," and my slow shift toward a more accomplishment-oriented mind-set had brought me to sense of emptiness. It had brought me away from Paladin's vibration. My Taoist energy had evaporated, leaving behind a gnawing, pulling, desperate ( Read more... )

Continued fairly directly from here.
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Sunday, September 25th 2016
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Early in the morning I wandered into Paladin's room. It was delightful to have him awake before me. It meant that I could seek out his company immediately upon waking and feel his energy enveloping me.
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"It feels like it did back when we lived in Snowland," I said, my heart pulsating ( Read more... )

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This story is quite the game changer for Paladin and I. This is one of my more interesting and worthwhile reads in my own opinion, so please do give it a read, and comment as you feel inspired.
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