Me and Erica just got done fighting.. again. I hope this is the last one. I'm so sick of fighting with her. She makes me want to kill myself. She has this damn power over me. She talks and I melt. And I hate it. And I always give in to whatever she says because I don't want her to hate me. And I want her to be happy ( Read more... )

She's so makin' it hard. And she knows it. Whore. :D

Ha. So tonight was fun.

The End.

She almost made me cry again.. And I thought I was past that stage in my life. I need to just stop talking to her about this shit..ha. That what happened. We talked. I asked her if she thought anything would happen when I went over to her house on Wednesday. She said no. She doesn't want anything to happen. It just made me sad. I still feel ( Read more... )

Everything is somewhat better now. Now I just wish I could figure out how to change the font on livejournal. I haven't used this thing in so long, I forgot. I like everything else, I just want a different font. If anyone can help, holla at me. Haha, wow that was lame ( Read more... )

I need pills in more ways than one. I hate me. And who I am. *sigh*

Why can't everyone just learn? Why can't I just learn? Why can't I be someone else.

I tried.. I tried.. I can't do it. And that sucks. For everyone involved.

I'm going to sleep.

Gah, I have so much shit going on in my head, it's crazy. But I think I know what I'm going to do. I think I know the best thing to do. I've got to stop being a whore with people that actually have feelings for me. Unless I am 100% sure I have feelings for them, too. Which, in that case, I will be as big a whore as I want. :D But for now, I ( Read more... )

Haven't written in forever. Elaine's gettin me all into this livejournal crap again. Me and Erica broke up, sad, yes, but I'm getting over it slowly but surely. It will take some definite time for me, even though she got over it rather quickly. It killed me how she was able to stay so stable while i was bawling my eyes out, but.. whatever ( Read more... )

sigh.

wow, havent written in here in forever.  i'm pretty sure i wont be ever writing in here unless i feel the absolute need to.  okay.  bye.

i never write in here. i always write in myspace. contact me if you would like to read it ( Read more... )

well. me and monica finally hung out. the result? here ya go:

me: we can't do it in the parking lot. there's too many lights. we need an alley. like downtown.
monica: but there's people in the alleys. we could do it on the backroads.
a little while laterme: this is gonna be so much fun!.... if we could just find a place to do it ( Read more... )