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Gah, I have so much shit going on in my head, it's crazy. But I think I know what I'm going to do. I think I know the best thing to do. I've got to stop being a whore with people that actually have feelings for me. Unless I am 100% sure I have feelings for them, too. Which, in that case, I will be as big a whore as I want. :D But for now, I need to chill. I need to get over my retarded need for affection. Then maybe I can really meet someone who I can be with for the rest of my life. Maybe I can be serious about things and really look for someone new. Yes, I'm still madly in love with Erica, and yes, it will take me time to get over her. But, I really believe that if I can find someone new to really like and focus my attention on, then I can get over her sooner. And I can stop feeling this way. So, that's my new goal. To find someone to like.. maybe to love. I'm officially looking for someone new. Maybe I'll go clubbing with Elaine. Can anyone imagine me clubbing? HA, even the thought makes me laugh. But, I'll refuse to dance. Cuz, I just don't dance. Anyone who knows me should know that. Ha. No way in hell. Oh dear...
That's enough for now.
That's enough for now.