Morning

[notrustmatters]

She almost made me cry again.. And I thought I was past that stage in my life. I need to just stop talking to her about this shit..ha. That what happened. We talked. I asked her if she thought anything would happen when I went over to her house on Wednesday. She said no. She doesn't want anything to happen. It just made me sad. I still feel so empty without her even though I may act like I'm okay. And I really think I will cry when I'm over there. I may not cry now.. but I haven't really FELT what it's like to not have her. I haven't had her around me without being able to hug her and hold her. It's going to suck. But I really feel like I have to do it. It's gonna have to happen eventually. Plus, if I don't go now, I'll have to mail her stuff to her. And that's just a hassle. I'd rather just get it over. And if it's too hard, I won't ever have to do it again. God, I'm sad.

I watched QaF this morning. I was supposed to be sleeping, but I'm addicted to that show now thanks to Elaine. I'm gonna be so depressed after I finish the second season tonight. I won't have anymore to watch until Elaine buys the third season (ha).

Alright, Elaine's on her way over, I'm out.