it appears that at times in our lives we find ourselves at a conflict of interests. the things we want are not aligned in such a manor as that we cannot have our cake and eat it too. It is at this stage that i am at currently ( Read more... )

A cold wind blew, the kiss of the wind on the back of his neck but the hairs are already standing on end. His skin itching for the hold in motion to release the tension building from his muscles straining to not react ( Read more... )

i decided to do a social experiment. I post an obviously vague statement about self-medicating due to illness, saying goodnight and that i would see everyone in a week. Can you gather over the day how many people posted concern? not a single one. it makes me question my belief in myself ( Read more... )

so yesterday i had a really weird day. i have these random talks with my ex that normally leave me pissed off and confused about things. yesterday was unlike any day i have ever had though.
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You know it seems that my life is a balancing act. For every positive thing that happens, I get an equal negative. Sometimes i wonder if this is a test to see how much good i can make of my life versus how much bad my life can throw at me. I swear that over the course of my life, I have had women drift into and out of my life pretty consistently ( Read more... )

When ever i hear this song, i get an image of a group of nondescript and almost ephemeral men are walking along a path. the sun behind them, they travel with the light shining on them almost angelically ( Read more... )

now normally im not into the shameless promotion unless its in person but should any of you readers out there have a facebook and so desire a linkage then let me know. i shouldnt be hard to find if you know me.

so ive had the opportunity to tell the story of my dream a few times tonight ( Read more... )

last night, i had what i believe is a self revalation in dream form ( Read more... )

So i have this need to be with someone. For most of my life i was alone and when i met my first gf, it filled a void i had no idea existed. This has left me a broken man ( Read more... )