the dream
last night, i had what i believe is a self revalation in dream form...
I was hiking through a field of some kind, farmer types walking with hoes and watering buckets. It established in my mind that i was not near home. I knew why i was there alone, with a walking stick and a crude rucksack with everything i might need. I find myself walking into this meeting hall, several other new members are meeting with the heads of this camp to go over an introduction of sorts so that we understand what we are getting into. This is a co-ed camp and there are several women there. We have the radio playing, its the bone morning show ( i was half asleep listening to this for reals) and i realized that as i was slowly waking up that i was losing a connection to my dream. Thankfully it stopped or i sunk deeper into the dream because it winked out and i apologized and bowed my head because i felt like shit for not paying attention. Shortly there after this girl walks up to me and i look up at her as she hands me this lil note.
"dont worry about worries (...I cant really remember what it said here.....)"
I think it said something like 'it inhibits social interaction' or maybe that was the meaning i took away. I just cant remember clearly.
I flipped it over and there was a design like she was drawing something previously and i happened to get it as part of my note, it was folded over and so i opened it and it simply said:
"i like you"
with that i fast forwarded to a couple of weeks later and we are at a group gathering, there is this picturesqe ruin we are camping in and i wander around. I have developed a habit of not being part of the central group and staying on the fringe if you will. the girl who gave me the note and several of her new found friends are watching me as i skulk around. the sun is coming down and so i wander to edge of the ruins, there is a cliff face and so i pull out a cheap digital camera and try to capture the view of the setting sun. i ended up zooming into this mansion down the cliff with a barely visable pool. the shimmer was not as expected but i caught midgets diving in. (i swear to god). i turn from my position overlooking the edge to find two of the other folks are having a tussle. i get between them and they immediately start to back down from their agression. I think i had tussled with them both and being fairly big and far more physically active i settled it quickly with them. I remember looking into the crowd wondering why no one else was doing anything to settle it, they had the mob mentality ring going on.
so we fast forward again and im peicing together flashbacks to find out that one of the councilors has been stealing from places we visit and from our own supplies. i bring to light the issue and others start adding details in a conference to bring it all together. i swear it was like living an episode of scooby doo.
fast forward, my boss is sitting next to me. he is nervous being here as a representative from the outside world to review my progress and see how i am doing. He is jumpy as other people have parents and family. I dont know why he was chosen or why he chose to be there. They mention how well ive progressed and he is pleased. He wants to know when i will be out so i can return to work and get back ontop of projects that need me.
fast forward, graduation day. all the new comers and several longer resident members are graduating. we are all dressed formally as it is treated as such. the girl who gave me the note has faded some but still retains her interest maybe i just didnt want to be with her. they are waiting to make an entrance and two of thhe girls fall down a flight of stairs into a hottub. (dont ask) i follow them down as they are jubilantly jumping from a hot tub to a cold water tub. i pick one up and carry her as you would a new wife accross the threshhold and suddenly its like a movie fade as my black suit fades the picture.
fast forward, wedding day. just as i had ended the last part i start the next part. I am carrying my wife. i realized i was out of body as i was looking at myself, i had aged. i had trimmed up and had a nice beard. she was gorgeous in her white dress and i started to cry. "are you crying to get a better price from the photographer?" she asked and i replied between sobs "maybe" and then i woke up as i stepped toward the group of people snapping pictures of us. the feeling of elation and joy was unbelievable and carried through when i woke up.
I was hiking through a field of some kind, farmer types walking with hoes and watering buckets. It established in my mind that i was not near home. I knew why i was there alone, with a walking stick and a crude rucksack with everything i might need. I find myself walking into this meeting hall, several other new members are meeting with the heads of this camp to go over an introduction of sorts so that we understand what we are getting into. This is a co-ed camp and there are several women there. We have the radio playing, its the bone morning show ( i was half asleep listening to this for reals) and i realized that as i was slowly waking up that i was losing a connection to my dream. Thankfully it stopped or i sunk deeper into the dream because it winked out and i apologized and bowed my head because i felt like shit for not paying attention. Shortly there after this girl walks up to me and i look up at her as she hands me this lil note.
"dont worry about worries (...I cant really remember what it said here.....)"
I think it said something like 'it inhibits social interaction' or maybe that was the meaning i took away. I just cant remember clearly.
I flipped it over and there was a design like she was drawing something previously and i happened to get it as part of my note, it was folded over and so i opened it and it simply said:
"i like you"
with that i fast forwarded to a couple of weeks later and we are at a group gathering, there is this picturesqe ruin we are camping in and i wander around. I have developed a habit of not being part of the central group and staying on the fringe if you will. the girl who gave me the note and several of her new found friends are watching me as i skulk around. the sun is coming down and so i wander to edge of the ruins, there is a cliff face and so i pull out a cheap digital camera and try to capture the view of the setting sun. i ended up zooming into this mansion down the cliff with a barely visable pool. the shimmer was not as expected but i caught midgets diving in. (i swear to god). i turn from my position overlooking the edge to find two of the other folks are having a tussle. i get between them and they immediately start to back down from their agression. I think i had tussled with them both and being fairly big and far more physically active i settled it quickly with them. I remember looking into the crowd wondering why no one else was doing anything to settle it, they had the mob mentality ring going on.
so we fast forward again and im peicing together flashbacks to find out that one of the councilors has been stealing from places we visit and from our own supplies. i bring to light the issue and others start adding details in a conference to bring it all together. i swear it was like living an episode of scooby doo.
fast forward, my boss is sitting next to me. he is nervous being here as a representative from the outside world to review my progress and see how i am doing. He is jumpy as other people have parents and family. I dont know why he was chosen or why he chose to be there. They mention how well ive progressed and he is pleased. He wants to know when i will be out so i can return to work and get back ontop of projects that need me.
fast forward, graduation day. all the new comers and several longer resident members are graduating. we are all dressed formally as it is treated as such. the girl who gave me the note has faded some but still retains her interest maybe i just didnt want to be with her. they are waiting to make an entrance and two of thhe girls fall down a flight of stairs into a hottub. (dont ask) i follow them down as they are jubilantly jumping from a hot tub to a cold water tub. i pick one up and carry her as you would a new wife accross the threshhold and suddenly its like a movie fade as my black suit fades the picture.
fast forward, wedding day. just as i had ended the last part i start the next part. I am carrying my wife. i realized i was out of body as i was looking at myself, i had aged. i had trimmed up and had a nice beard. she was gorgeous in her white dress and i started to cry. "are you crying to get a better price from the photographer?" she asked and i replied between sobs "maybe" and then i woke up as i stepped toward the group of people snapping pictures of us. the feeling of elation and joy was unbelievable and carried through when i woke up.