What happens to potential when that’s all there is? What happens when that girl with so much potential, all the potential - to do better, to be more, to achieve anything - what happens when she ages? What happens when all the potential takes all the part time jobs that will definitely work into something full time, especially for someone with so ( Read more... )

In just under two weeks, if all goes well, I will have my bachelor’s degree. It has only taken me nearly twenty years to finish ( Read more... )

It hit me this morning that going to school at this age is like being sick and never getting better. I got up at almost 11 this morning after going to bed just after 11 last night. I could have slept all day. My nose is a little runny and my eyes are a little watery, allergies I guess. On top of that though is just the clinging lethargy of it all. ( Read more... )

Why is life so often reasonless? When we went to Calvary, looking for reason made for such horrible assumptions. Bad things must be a result of sin. Mental illness must be demons. Misfortunes must mean disobedience. Debilitating sicknesses were obviously a judgment. Even if a person’s life reflected no reason for god’s wrath and in rare occasion ( Read more... )

In July I had skin cancer removed from my neck. It was kinda scary and hurt and hit emotionally in ways I didn't expect. It was only skin cancer, not like "real cancer" which is what I told everyone including myself. But that's not what I want to talk about ( Read more... )

I guess this is back to being my place to process ( Read more... )

Maybe it's still too early in December to come on here and gush about the year I've had, but after this week I know I need to write this down so I have this place to come back to and remember how thankful I am in this moment ( Read more... )

Life is a bear. A big, ferocious, fuzzy thing to wrestle til we die. A years and years long search for truth and answers that we can never find. And everyone thinks they have them, answers, truth, whatever. A few years ago I heard the concept of "your truth" and laughed at it. How can there be more than one truth? The truth is a fixed point, right ( Read more... )

I am starting to learn that finding "who you are" has a whole lot to do with who you enjoy being around and who enjoys being around you. What makes you spark and glow and bubble? Who makes you talk too loud and too fast? What makes you sing and even dance in your car on the drive home? Pay attention to those people. They aren't you, but they say so ( Read more... )

I always thought of myself as a good judge of character. I think I read people pretty well. My first impressions are usually always right, even when my first impression is built on a gut feeling more than the actual meeting. But then I look lately at the "circle" I have and I question my ability to make good judgements. One of the realizations I ( Read more... )