Or is it early morning? I been up since 4 so idk... i dont care what you call it... I'm awake... period... I got to talk a lil to her yesterday... she was spending time with family... I think she was able to get monday off of work... how else would she make it back? Unless another family member was coming back with and then flying back to NY... idk ( Read more... )

I read my last post to remind myself wat it said so this one made as much sense as possible. Well... that next weekend I did not see her I ended up going to the beach. I did see her last night (Thursday). She randomly txted me askin about MJ and I said Yeah if you let me eat your pussy... she said 'I'm on the way' So yeah... case of longnecks, ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to start... ugh... I am wide awake at 2 am I have my last therapy appt at 9... Joy! I haven't seen her in a month... its really pointless to go and talk to her... things that have happened... seizure... the usual depression because of the seizure... meeting someone... hmm i dunno which version of meeting her she would want ( Read more... )

Really? I am having issues between my moms gf and I... of all women. This past weekend I threw a party for Lisa's Birthday well 2 days b4 the party my period started so my mom knew I was gonna be down for the count... so she took over for me with the cooking. Personally things would have been done slightly different if I would have cooked. But I ( Read more... )

Its late... I cant sleep... I been up since 11am when heather woke me to tell me her phone still worked... I think I am starting to get a migraine from trying to understand women... in FEB. Tracee jumped on the chance to ask me out as soon as I was single and she was single... yea impulsive I know. But I said yes cause I didnt want to say no and ( Read more... )

A whole year has gone by and then some... so much change in what seems like such a short time. This was last year our Christmas picture:

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So I am sitting on my bed eating some ice cream and cereal... when I realize that I am haveing this overwhelming feeling of loneliness. My mom is now a lesbian, has a gf and as much as I love her I dunno if I look at her as anything but mom yet... I mean theres so many questions... do old people do it the same way? My mom has arthritis, her hands ( Read more... )

Today I woke up feeling a little better. Me and mom went and dropped Trish off at work, to the gas station we went. CVS, Wal-Mart and the Mall was next. CVS was dead and the female pharmacist I suspect to be gay was hanging garland. I got Trish's meds and told them not to work too hard. Wal-mart was another story, people everywhere. Crazy christmas ( Read more... )

So I was told I need to journal more... I dunno if I can put 2 and 2 together right now. I woke up feeling like crap, my head hurt, my throat hurt, and worst of all I had a dream that I was losing Trish. It was a totally illogical dream, but the fear is still there. The only other thought in my head is BED BED BED...

I talked to the girl yesterday, she said that basically theres no chance and her reaction and all the feelings she shared to me when we met were a mistake. Which leads me to feel like I was lied to... and it hurts ( Read more... )