I am alive. I thought I knew what love was. I have these amazing feelings for someone... what do I do? I push them down... hide them and turn to Trish. It sucks. *shrugs* Part of me thinks that this person wants nothing to do with me the other has a little hope. Thats what made me try to leave my fiance...

Right now she's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp ( Read more... )

Myself- I am mentally unstable, financially uncapable, stubborn and selfish. It is very difficult living inside this body with these thoughts flying at me. All within the last week I have wanted to throw away a strong relationship, to take a chance on something I thought I had a possibility at. That same night I was ignored by the closest person to ( Read more... )

With me... with everything I dont know I cant put my finger on one particular thing I just know that this has been building for awhile. I know that when Linda had that barbeque I called Trish, Lisa. Last night I looked at Trish and saw Amanda. I think I am bi-polar. I had a dream about my cousin and he made me so happy. I am not happy, no longer ( Read more... )

Wow... Do you ever have so much to say but no clue where to start? "Use I sentences, start with how you feel... I feel alone, I feel sad, I feel guilty... I am not happy for very long, I get tired extremely easily, I feel like such a burden. It's catching up.

I went shopping today, with Trish and Amanda, I wish I could plan better when going or something. Originally at A&E we went over on the credit card and that is embarassing for the customer and stressful for the employee... so we had to go through stuff and decide what we wanted to get rid of ( Read more... )

Thought I would try to get back into lj... as popular as myspace has grown I still <3 lj very much. Since I have updated I have found a wonderful woman. She is my heart, my soul, my everything. I love her through and through.

Lisa and Sarah: Contact me... unless I call you first.

I got kicked out. Oficially. I am living with my gf. Life is basically day by day right now.

( SPACE!! that is all. )

Life, love, lethargic, lust, I feel all these things and I also feel like I am slowly going bonkers with BOREDOM! Life right now feels like I have been sitting in this computer chair for hours surfing the web searching and searching for something I have no clue how to find and also looking for that one person I can open my heart to... tell ( Read more... )