Another late night...
Or is it early morning? I been up since 4 so idk... i dont care what you call it... I'm awake... period... I got to talk a lil to her yesterday... she was spending time with family... I think she was able to get monday off of work... how else would she make it back? Unless another family member was coming back with and then flying back to NY... idk... I just hope she has a safe drive back home... I know for a fact very few people read this so it helps me be more open. :) I been trying not to think about the procedure that my mom is going to have to go through... about a 6'' long incision and then they do a lot of 'bone work' which i figured out last night meant they cut it and saw it and all that painful stuff... cause shes getting a replacement knee aluminum i believe... so its gotta fit in there just right... my poor momma is gonna be sooooo doped up on meds... when they took out her galbladder she wasn't goofy at all but I mean this is gonna have rehabilitation... she's gonna have a walker and gonna have to learn how to walk all over again... I've been crying off and on... I am also actually taking my meds so I think that will effect my MJ consumption... mom mentioned need to cut back cause with the surgery shes gonna be out of work so theres a slight pay cut. I SHOULD BE TAKIN MY MEDS ANYWAY. I'm gonna get ande to go swimmin today... I'm feeling pretty good. Even if i gotta ghetto rig my red suit... my suit i wore to the beach is even getting too big. The bottoms are clean but i believe the top is still dirty... I think I have babbled enough, to bed I said... back to bed that is... :)