*grumbles under my breath*
Its late... I cant sleep... I been up since 11am when heather woke me to tell me her phone still worked... I think I am starting to get a migraine from trying to understand women... in FEB. Tracee jumped on the chance to ask me out as soon as I was single and she was single... yea impulsive I know. But I said yes cause I didnt want to say no and her never ask again. So then a week later she ends it telling me she isnt ready and tells trish publicly on fb that it was cause she didnt feel a romantic connection with me... well obviously there wasnt one there we had never really explored one... and now that I think about it we have never been 'romantic' so to speak... I have called her babe and baby and told her how I feel but most of the time she has been fucked up and cant remember... thats like when I was drunk and gave Vicky a lap dance and Ray was all get it girl and then Vicky couldnt remember!! The first GOOD lapdance I actually give someone gets forgotten... anyway a week later she wants to give it a shot... we basically go back and forth... confessing our feelings and each time I open up more and more of myself. I met her almost 6yrs ago this July. I was going to go to Louisiana. I was going to get the Tickets. Shes been the one in my head since I met her and she knows that. I used to hope it was vicky. maybe it is someone else. It has to be. The woman I marry would not play with my heart like this. I hate her i love her i hate her i love her i hate her i love her i hate her i love her i hater her i love her i hate her i love her... owwww... my heart hurts