"do you know jack wilcox?", asked shelly. "yeah i do!". i hadn't heard his name in so long ( Read more... )

"didn't you date christy?". "christy who?", i asked. Hollie said back, "christy denail". yes i did. she was my first girlfriend. she was a senior in high school and i was a sophomore. i knew nothing about having a girlfriend or relationships. i just knew she was my best friend and it was all very innocent to me. it was the way i wish every ( Read more... )

back in 1987 i remember very well sitting in the back seat of my family's 1985 buick skylark hearing "all my ex's live in texas". mom was driving and very rarley do you catch my mother listening to country music. but now listening to this song almost 20 years later, george is still the shit and if he really did leave texas for tennessee just ( Read more... )

i've had a rough past couple of days. this yesterday morning, i could not get out of bed. my nerves were shot and my anxiety was high. i called my mother to bring me a bottle of water and my xanax. she insisted we pray. i somewhat found no use in it being i'm very confused as to why god, a loving god would do this to me and let this happen. i haven ( Read more... )

i got a complicated message from a dear friend today. apparently i said something to a friend about her relationship to her husband and it really didn't set well w/ her. i said some other things to her before this about some other things. so now she decides to speak up. i didn't know i had made her upset. but the bad thing was that it upset me. bad ( Read more... )

i haven't posted on her ein over a year and maybe that's not so good. i'm planning on writing here as much as possible. it'd be good for me ( Read more... )

i had the best weekend in the world. i was not paranoid, scared, or anxious about anything. my most favorite cousin in the world was w/ me this weekend and we had a blast hanging out. we went to a lousy family reunion together (which i am related to some nasty "bull dikes" and to find that my family was once a bunch of fucking goat herders), had my ( Read more... )

i still hear those lonesome whistles in the dead of night. i must be going crazy cause it sounds like theyre saying "bob" when they blow the way they do. so i get in my car and i hunt them down and drive along side them as far as i can. i still can't shake these damn freight train blues ( Read more... )

for ashley who every time i see a vehicle like yours, i freak out. every time i here that name, i hold my breath. you have me paranoid. ben folds once sang, "every couple nights or so you know you pop into my dreams. i just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me. but i send my best cause god knows you've seen my worst ( Read more... )

i used to have this dream where i was in this forrest and all around me were this big, tall pine trees to cover me from everything there was. i would sit on this hollow log w/ my guitar and start singing, "i'm never gonna know you now but i'm gonna love you anyhow". i could look up at the sky and see nothing but clouds. it was beautiful. i long for ( Read more... )