May 07, 2005 00:09
for ashley who every time i see a vehicle like yours, i freak out. every time i here that name, i hold my breath. you have me paranoid. ben folds once sang, "every couple nights or so you know you pop into my dreams. i just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me. but i send my best cause god knows you've seen my worst".
and sometimes i have dreams that are so awful that i refuse to sleep. so i stay up and watch reruns of full house, pick up my guitar, sweep the floor. something. but it still hurts. and it hurts worse that i still love her and i still care about her. i wish i were lost somewhere and not have to worry anymore. ah, but teri, you told me sweetly, "you can do better than her". remember this bob. you. that attractive guy in the mirror you see everyday. that funny trip ass son of a bitch. the guy w/ the nice new car he's so proud of. the clean house. the intelegent one that is everyone's friend. that's you. so get over her.
going to bed now. i'm going to my men's retreat in the morning. fun times.