maybe going back to school really will be a weight off my shoulders like simply going back to the mva and getting a real license was. the novelty of being young and wreckless is finally starting to wear off, and now that it's out of the way i may be able to narrow down my mind and priorities together. i've never been good at enjoying something ( Read more... )

i think the accumulation of my passive-aggressiveness is about to explode into a disaster, so i want to be patient and approach things appropriately with my new understanding of my irritations. and last night josh and i were listening to Father & Son by Cat Stevens.... and the Flaming Lips ripped him off with their song Fight Test! that's a part ( Read more... )

i feel like i've lost a spark i had before. i can't tell if it's age, maturity, depression, confusion, comfortability, or happiness. i don't think there is anything missing, i just feel like something got lost. i need to start forcing myslelf to write. josh has a few songs for us but i don't have the lyrics. we've got this epic duoso we still haven ( Read more... )

i love love love this sudo adulthood so many have been claiming lately. ohhh so you're married, older, won a job, kinda smart, have kids, clean your house, in a relationship, have a preference toward something? give me a fucking break. you've accomplished the same as any other mammal on earth. i hate all you sudo beings.

you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't write when you're happy you can't ( Read more... )

i'm considering leaving the country again for an extended amount of time. i now have free places to stay until i get on my feet which makes it all too pleasingly possible. my only problems are school, work, and him. school, i could put off yet again and feel like more of a failure. work, i could find another job quick i guess. him, i can't replace ( Read more... )

i haven't been filling some not-so-tall orders and i'm not feeling so tall.

i'm so mindblown ( Read more... )

i'm so emotionally drained. i wouldn't set my alarm tomorrow if i didn't think i'd sleep until next year. i've been in two fights this week. both with no resolution yet. it makes it so much more difficult to be on the right side of one argument with someone, when you know that in another pending fight you are in the wrong. this week all i've been ( Read more... )

I've been watching the seasons of Roseanne as they keep coming in the mail, and it's been the best series i've ever strived to complete. we're on season 3 of the 9. the transitions of the outfits from the late 80s into the 90s is the greatest. josh will stay in bed with me and watch it until he has to fall asleep, and i'll try to stay real quiet. ( Read more... )