mrow. it's so wonderful, and i get so scared.

being human is hard work.....

it makes me sad that you still assume the worst of me. it makes me scared that despite me telling you otherwise to what you assume, that you won't believe me. that you'll put a big black cross against me. just like last time, all those times you believed i was angry with you when i wasn't. you assume the worst of me, and i can't trust you to tell ( Read more... )

saturday december 4th 2010 will potentially stand out as one of the most important days of my life. i spent most of it on the couch feeling sorry for myself, and then with someone very special on his couch feeling like a very lucky girl. nothing very out of the ordinary happened, except that i made a decision that will change my life forever. a ( Read more... )

how things so quickly change, in the best way possible.

you're so cool..... <3

I'm not moving on, but I am moving forward. I'm not forgetting you, I'm just keeping myself sane. I'm not looking for someone new, i'm just not waiting around for you anymore.

And i feel happier, so I know that this is right for me. But i'm sorry, because i know that you'll be sad.

.two months

i'm sad too..... Xx

i said this six years ago, and here i am again.

i hate having to just be friends.

:'(

Unwelcome attention is annoying. boys are annoying. asking me out three times in a week is annoying. well.... persistent. it's annoying because it requires effort on my part to repeatedly say no as nicely as possible because maybe one day i would like to go out with him and i don't want to burn any bridges. the frustrating thing is that his body is ( Read more... )

i have this problem where i'm afraid of missing out on things if i don't take a chance when it presents itself. right now, i'm afraid of missing out on dating a nice person because i brush him off because i don't feel ready yet. but i'm not ready yet. i don't even want to be ready yet. i can't possibly start dating someone in good conscience if i ( Read more... )

i don't ever know what to do.

i don't want to care anymore. it's unfair that it's not a choice.