Saturday, June 07, 2008 ( Read more... )

Sunday, June 15, 2008 ( Read more... )

By the time I get to live journal I dont even want to expend the energy I need to type. I dont want to think anymore about why I'm depressed, or why my knife is a little closer to my hand than normal. Most of the time, I shut it out. You can ask at this point, "whats wrong?" and I couldnt tell you. I dont know anymore at this point. I just shove ( Read more... )

I'm really tired. Been eating too damned mucch lately and its starting to piss me off. Fucking hell if I'm pregnant again I'm going to kill something.

As long as I keep breathing I'll be ok.

No one will let me cut.

Can't they see its all i have sometimes?

I can't cut because no one will let me, but if I dont I go back to who I was.

A whore. A druggie. A drunk.

I kinda wish someone would just hurry up and kill me.

Ok. SO. Heres the long and shirt version ( Read more... )

I hate to say this but I envy you. You're a beautiful person inside and out, whether or not you want to see it ( Read more... )

Hello my LJ peoples. What up yo? Shit I haven't been on here in so damn long. And now that I am again...I remember why.

Ok bye, now.

When did I get so old inside?

i can barely breathe most of the time. I've gained too much weight, and my heart isn't beating properly. My blood pressure is too low, and sometimes it feels like i'm going to have a heart attack. I wouldn't be surprised. If I have one I hope it kills me. My head always hurts, my chest and my left arm. My hands because theres not enough blood to ( Read more... )