So Friday didn't go at all as I planned. Maybe it's my own fault, maybe it's just, you know, faith. I was just so ready to tell him and I felt so much "love" for him and nothing else really mattered to me, not even his response.. but I never got the chance to tell him because he wasn't there on Friday. We weren't at the same party.
So we first ( Read more... )

 
A few things..

Tomorrow there will be a school play reunion, it's going to start again and I really want to join it, because I've done the two past school plays.

Friday is -hopefully- going to be a night to remember. After school we're going to Brussels Park with R.D., Small A, and some other friends, again with a crate of beer, and then I'm going ( Read more... )

I knoowww a lot of time has gone by AGAIN and it's not that I have nothing to tell, au contraire, every day something new happens to me. So quick update.

I ended up being ditched by A.W. on Saturday, during the break. Like I told you we were going to go to the cinema, but we didn't. When he got back, he didn't let me know a damn thing. It's only ( Read more... )

I keep on imagining how it would be if I would date A.W. Sometimes I'm not sure if I want to get together with him, but then again.. I love him. I love the person he is.  (Now I'm afraid that I said that maybe a bit too soon and that I will get confronted with the fact that he and I will never be.)

Last Friday was a shiny day and it was as if it ( Read more... )

I had a great time again with A.W. You remember at first, when I told you that we had great moments but that something was missing? Well, I don't have that feeling anymore. Every time when we're spending some time together, it gives me a special feeling. I feel super comfortable around him, I don't have to be shy or embarrassed or so. He told me ( Read more... )

Yesterday I didn't go to the zumba lesson. I skipped, AGAIN. I haven't done sports for two weeks now. I'm going to start next week again. I started off so dedicated! Of coouurse, there's a reason why I skipped and yes it was A.W. I preferred hanging out with him. There was another girl though. I had just met her, Sam. She was very spontaneous so we ( Read more... )

So Thursday A.W. came to school. I guess nothing really special happened between us. The seniors organised 'Studniówka', as Wikipedia calls it. Everybody in school had to disguise. I didn't know how I should have come but I came as a whore, eventually. The idea was to be disguised as a member of a triad or Mafia, but I looked more like a slut. I ( Read more... )

God I miss him.. them. It must seem awkward to you that I'm thinking about two boys right now. Well a boy, soon to be a man, and a man.
Yesterday Ben came to English course. He picked a seat close to mine. He has a great smile, you know. I like him, but not the same way as I like A.W. and I'm definitely not falling in love with him or something. I ( Read more... )

I must say that I had a wonderful day today, and again, A.W. is the one to blame.
First, I was going to school and I was just thinking about Vday. Then suddenly I remembered that three years ago my grandma died today. I was sooo emotional all of the sudden. But it was okay, you know. 
After school I ate ice cream with Zoeey. We decided to do ( Read more... )

I try to be aware of every moment in my life. I try to remember how I felt or what I was thinking, what my values & principles were at the age of 11, 12,13, ... It's difficult for an adult to know how kids are and what's on their mind. As a parent it's so important to understand what kids think and stuff. Mostly adults just think that children don' ( Read more... )