Yesterday I didn't go to the zumba lesson. I skipped, AGAIN. I haven't done sports for two weeks now. I'm going to start next week again. I started off so dedicated! Of coouurse, there's a reason why I skipped and yes it was A.W. I preferred hanging out with him. There was another girl though. I had just met her, Sam. She was very spontaneous so we ( Read more... )

So Thursday A.W. came to school. I guess nothing really special happened between us. The seniors organised 'Studniówka', as Wikipedia calls it. Everybody in school had to disguise. I didn't know how I should have come but I came as a whore, eventually. The idea was to be disguised as a member of a triad or Mafia, but I looked more like a slut. I ( Read more... )

I try to be aware of every moment in my life. I try to remember how I felt or what I was thinking, what my values & principles were at the age of 11, 12,13, ... It's difficult for an adult to know how kids are and what's on their mind. As a parent it's so important to understand what kids think and stuff. Mostly adults just think that children don' ( Read more... )

I haven't been able to talk about the latest news. I just have so much to do lately. I'm busy all the time. So this is going to be a long entry.

I called my cousin two or three days after my last post. I asked him why he didn't contact me for 9 months.. and he said that he never said that I couldn't contact him and he that he's been busy with his ( Read more... )

I called him that night. I decided to talk to him. I explained it to him.. and after five minutes we were okay. I think I won his trust back.. 
& We were like one hour and a half on the phone.. It was good to talk to him. To know that it's okay.

Today I hung out with him, Ezz and some other friends. We went to a snack bar first. I didn't want to eat ( Read more... )

I feel so nauseous. I haven't eaten anything today. Tea, three cups of coffee and three cigarettes is all I had so far. I know it is unhealthy but that's what I do when I don't feel well. That's how I am; self-destructive.
When I feel bad, I don't know what hunger is, I don't care about my health, then it's all about making myself feel worse.
After ( Read more... )

 
I don't know it anymore. A.W. is so .. I don't know. 
I'm starting to like him more and more and more and more and more and more. I called him last night. He said that he wasn't ignoring me at all. We had a conversation (also posted it on Tumblr) .

Me: Hi
A.W.: Hi
Me: Why did you ignore me today?
A.W.: I didn't. Sorry if it looked like that. I mean, ( Read more... )