so like this is the last thursday of my first semester of college and its raining outside and i havent updated in awhile.. so yea.. if you want to know whats going on in my life.. just call i guess.. yea.. im starting to hate livejournal because people tell me i should update and i dont so yea.. whatever.. i love french fries!

hey my stalkers, sorry i havent updated in a really long time.. just been having issues with stuff but my life is starting to finally piece itself back together. school has been stressing me out lately and i just fuckin hate it! lol but anywho everything is fine with me.. please pray for my grandma.. shes in the hospital right now and i think im ( Read more... )

this was an entry right after a fight i had with brandon and she told me that i'd move on my first semester of college... weird ( Read more... )

so i guess i'l update since i havent did that in a while. im sitting here on kara's big ole handicapped computer being bored. they all went to eat and so i really didnt want to go because they are all losers.. well no not really but anywho.... i love chicken.. i love liver, meow mix meow mix please deliver.. ok im really bored now so im just ( Read more... )

so im sitting here just being bored right now in the library by meself. waiting for someone to come make my day cheerful but hey... it aint happenin anytime soon. there are two cute boys that were mackin on me this morning and it seems as if i dont want to play back with them. lately i havent really wanted anyone like i used to. i guess im just ( Read more... )

it gets me when some people ask me why im so upset about what has went on during the past two weeks and people ask me why im so upset now to where every day i look like im the one that died... so to clarify WHY this affects me so hard is because all during school i had friends, but they all werent into what i was into. i was the band nerd ofcourse ( Read more... )

i got up and went to class today and got through the day.. its been a week since brandon has been gone, but i've been doing better, i dont really cry when i wake up anymore or when i go to sleep. well after i got out of classes, chris called and wanted to go see brandon. so i went and picked him up from tammy's.. i promised myself that i'd never go ( Read more... )

Brandon, you are finally laid to rest. i cant wait until i can see you again. please keep us safe and remember i love you my baby, my sweet guardian angel. help me when i feel alone. keep me close and remember that i have and will always love you all the days of my life and forever thereafter. you will never be replaced as my best friend and please ( Read more... )

October 15th, 2005 ( Read more... )

today i woke up just realizing that my baby is gone. i woke up just seeing the picture of him on my bed beside me and burst into tears. i got up and went looking through a lot of paperwork and found the sheetmusic brandon had given me so we could both play and sing it on the piano. it was our song ONE SWEET DAY by Mariah Carey and it just fit the ( Read more... )