my last goodbye
October 15th, 2005
today my baby, my sweet angel was laid to rest. it was probably the hardest day ever to kiss his farhead and feel him for one last time. we saved a spot for him after the funeral when we all went to eat chinese in honor of him. i put his picture and one of his roses in the empty seat with a plate of his favorite sesame chicken and fried cheese wontons. we also were able to get an extra fortune cookie. we all broke off a piece of the cookie and ate it at the same time. we read his fortune which said "you are enjoyed by your company" we then said our goodbyes and went our seperate ways. i took a nap when i got home, the best sleep i've had since his death, woke up without crying not realizing what i was doing, sat at the computer and typed this and after the last mark on the page i finally realized what i had typed and felt as if someone had left out of my body. i really think this was a prayer between he and i:
Take me Lord as I am,
Take me to your holy land
Give me your grace and show me the way
Help my family and friends that I'm still here to stay
Give them the courage the strength and serenity
Show them that I still love them
Make sure they know that I will guide them
All the days of their life
Tell them that I will soon reunite with them
That I will be there with open arms
I will wait for them even until the day they die
And bring them to your holy side
Take my friend lord as he is
Take him and embrace him in this land there is
Show him to guide us and mold us into your angels
So that one day we will be up above with him
Show us the courage to make him strong
And that our time on earth wont be too long
We will soon be in your kingdom
Oh God our father let him meet us on our last day…..
i would like to thank everyone for your support through this rough time. thank you to everyone who was there physically and in mind and please continue to pray for his beautiful soul. thank you all. i love you.
Brandon, you are finally laid to rest. i cant wait until i can see you again. please keep us safe and remember i love you my baby, my sweet guardian angel. teach me to be the person you wanted me to be and help me when i feel alone. keep me close and remember that i have and will always love you all the days of my life and forever thereafter. you will never be replaced as my best friend and please forgive me for the times that i was harsh to you. im sorry for all of our fights and i just hope you can forgive me. you always put a smile on my face so please continue to do the same. i need you more than ever. i love you my guardian angel and may god bless you:
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
WHISKEY LULLABYE
She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby
today my baby, my sweet angel was laid to rest. it was probably the hardest day ever to kiss his farhead and feel him for one last time. we saved a spot for him after the funeral when we all went to eat chinese in honor of him. i put his picture and one of his roses in the empty seat with a plate of his favorite sesame chicken and fried cheese wontons. we also were able to get an extra fortune cookie. we all broke off a piece of the cookie and ate it at the same time. we read his fortune which said "you are enjoyed by your company" we then said our goodbyes and went our seperate ways. i took a nap when i got home, the best sleep i've had since his death, woke up without crying not realizing what i was doing, sat at the computer and typed this and after the last mark on the page i finally realized what i had typed and felt as if someone had left out of my body. i really think this was a prayer between he and i:
Take me Lord as I am,
Take me to your holy land
Give me your grace and show me the way
Help my family and friends that I'm still here to stay
Give them the courage the strength and serenity
Show them that I still love them
Make sure they know that I will guide them
All the days of their life
Tell them that I will soon reunite with them
That I will be there with open arms
I will wait for them even until the day they die
And bring them to your holy side
Take my friend lord as he is
Take him and embrace him in this land there is
Show him to guide us and mold us into your angels
So that one day we will be up above with him
Show us the courage to make him strong
And that our time on earth wont be too long
We will soon be in your kingdom
Oh God our father let him meet us on our last day…..
i would like to thank everyone for your support through this rough time. thank you to everyone who was there physically and in mind and please continue to pray for his beautiful soul. thank you all. i love you.
Brandon, you are finally laid to rest. i cant wait until i can see you again. please keep us safe and remember i love you my baby, my sweet guardian angel. teach me to be the person you wanted me to be and help me when i feel alone. keep me close and remember that i have and will always love you all the days of my life and forever thereafter. you will never be replaced as my best friend and please forgive me for the times that i was harsh to you. im sorry for all of our fights and i just hope you can forgive me. you always put a smile on my face so please continue to do the same. i need you more than ever. i love you my guardian angel and may god bless you:
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
WHISKEY LULLABYE
She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby