sometimes i feel a little sad ( Read more... )

i am a woman on the edge ( Read more... )

okay, so you know when you close your hand in a door, or rip a band aid off really fast, or stub your toe or someone tells you a really gruesome story you wince ( Read more... )

so...haven't updated in awhile, and im not really sure why. I've kind of been avoiding writing here, like the plague, for some unknown, subconcious reason. There's no sense in launching a giant campaign listing the nothings that i've been doing for the past week, but i definetley can tell that there is something different here, than the last time i ( Read more... )

how am i supposed to deal,
with the world as a blur?
Standing still
colors whirling
wishing
worrying about trivial things
when there are so many bigger things at stake
deep thoughts are incomparable with
deeper issues.
Discovering where i belong
miles away, from yesterday's image
of self, of sense, of everything

okay, what the hell was that?

well im sooooo happy that everyone is just having the dandiest of times....

1. Im still congested after like 2 weeks ( Read more... )

there are these little intracacies, in the back of my brain;
things i should not remember:
the slight of your wrist, the grace of every little thing,
you ever touched.
Another bout of pain, rips through me as i line them up,
these tiny, tedious little memories
one by one, by one, by one, by one
and realize how alone, i actually am.

okay, so tonight was history fair (a big fucking waste of time) and now im dead tired. All i can think of is of Natalie, but i'm too tired to write, even if i still have english homework to do. I know she's not a real person, but deep down inside, she's my own personal ignominy, the glitch i fall back on, the life, although hers is hard, i wish i ( Read more... )

okay, well just now i was thinking about the true essence that makes me so perpetually fucked up. Like i know its not a big deal, but im getting sick, and i have to sing, alot this week, and i need to go to bed early, especially becuase im tired and i haven't finished all of my homework, but still im up and procrastinating, something thats actually ( Read more... )