Attention, what's left of my friends list:

I'm back, sort of.  But I'm moving to a new journal.  (Yes, again, but I'm addicted to giving myself fresh starts so bear with me).  I lurk on LJ a lot and everything about my bulimic!journal was negative and suffocating and triggering - basically just really not helpful for someone trying to recover and ( Read more... )

Bulimia:  it sucks, to put it mildly.

I started this journal hoping that I'd update it regularly and get to know the people on my friends list a bit better, etc ....but somewhere down the line I fucked up, developed an eating disorder, started another journal (that I DO happen to update regularly, unfortunately), and I think now I might as well ( Read more... )

Happy 10th Birthday, Hong Kong SAR.

Strange to think that I was actually born in the city when it was still a British colony.

But many of the best students of my generation are going to the UK to further their education; I'll be going to London myself in September, yessssssssssss.  The colonized are colonizing the past colonizers.  It's all good.

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I'm glad now that I opted out of the grad trip.  Everyone but a few close friends of mine are leaving, including him.  As anti-social as it sounds I don't mind missing out on hitting the beaches in Thailand with them.....I love my ex-classmates to pieces but need to get away from them for a while, need some time to think, to restructure and sort ( Read more... )

Watching my classmates here in Hong Kong react to the news of the shootout at Virginia Tech - and that punched-in-the-gut feeling I had when it came out that there were thirty fucking two dead - only reminded me how distance does little to lessen the impact of tragedy.  I couldn't breathe, watching that short clip going around the internet, with ( Read more... )

Ohh, happy happy days.  <3

Off school for a week in time for Chinese New Year; tomorrow's the big day and most Chinese families over here, including mine, spent the last day of the year dusting, mopping, fluffing the cushions and just cleaning up in general.  This is what I love about new years - everything's brightened up in the hopes for a new  ( Read more... )

Yes, I know, it's a little late for Valentine's day.......but I saw this on this site and somehow found myself relating to the nerdness of it.  <3


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Hmmm.  I've been feeling a little weird the whole day, with all these silly little moments when I feel like randomly pointing at some inanimate object e.g. a table leg and screaming, "FUCK YOU!"

It's because I've been thinking about Cambridge.  Not about the fact that I didn't get in;  I've gotten over that already, because I believe that wherever ( Read more... )

I bought a whole bouquet of yellow chrysanthemums yesterday.  They're currently sitting by my window sill, catching the light very prettily:  seventeen crowns of pale buttery silk, curling out in soft fragments like feathers stained by sunlight.  My mother wasn't happy about it, though, because they're funeral flowers - for the Chinese, at least - ( Read more... )

I hate, hate, hate binge eating.  I usually manage to cut off eating for most of the day - an apple or nothing for breakfast, sandwich for lunch and vegetables for dinner, no rice.  Then on nights like these I get so hungry that I sneak into the kitchen when everyone is asleep and I dig out the cookies and eat eat eat eat eat.  Half a pack.  Tried ( Read more... )