What if your morals turned and left you? What if what you once beleived in meant nothing to you anymore? I have never believed in violance, but i have never lost someone so close to me before either. Her death was so tragic and it's hard to even think about her that way, I think I would rather use future tense. Her death WILL BE so tragic. Yes, ( Read more... )

The more and more I fall back into my religion; which hasbeen happening more and more over the past year, I find myself digusted with myself. I see myself as a walking sin and I wish that I didn't. Everything becomes complicated and I find myself praying for forgiveness. In the old days, I had no respect for my religion, I saw myself as a deist, ( Read more... )

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What happens when you see it? When you see your fear? I saw mine, the worst that i could ever see, and I ran from it. Maybe not techniqually ran, but I got away from it. Fear has always been a big thing to me and I guess that i need to start thinking about the ways things work, the ways things move. Sometimes, it's better to just stay close to your ( Read more... )

Some people are just blind. In the last 4 days, Stefan hasn't had more then a 5 minute converstion with me and I am now becoming very worried. I may just be worrying becuase in those 5 minutes, he told me that we were ok.... but it feels as if something is wrong. I don't know what i did to get him in this moon and it's getting quite irritating. We ( Read more... )

Have you ever realized that when you go to say goodbye, the only things you can think of are things like "I'll miss you", "It's only a week" and "be safe", but the second they are gone, everything you want to say to them just falls into place? "I will dream about you every night", "I am going to be waiting right here for you with a smile on my face ( Read more... )

Well, the change is Rick. Rick is Stefan's best friend and everything changes when Rick is around. Actually, I should change that, everything changes when any of his friends are around ( Read more... )

So Stefan and I have been dating for a month now and all was going well until this weekend. Usually it's like the world revolves around me, well not really, more like my opinion is GOD and he would not do anything that didn't go along with it..... but this weekend things have drastically changed..... I'll go into more detail when i get home...... ( Read more... )

So a lot has happened in three years and there seems like there's no real place to start ( Read more... )

So me and chris broke up and things have been easy. I am taking a mental health day to day but tomorrow i am coming back becuase i don't care what people think about me. If you went to school today you probably heard chris talking shit and saying i am suicidal. Fuck no! I am not suicidal, i have a problem when i get to stressed up, work up and ( Read more... )