A Sad Note
Have you ever realized that when you go to say goodbye, the only things you can think of are things like "I'll miss you", "It's only a week" and "be safe", but the second they are gone, everything you want to say to them just falls into place? "I will dream about you every night", "I am going to be waiting right here for you with a smile on my face" or even "Go and enjoy yourself, when you get back, you are all mine though".
Stefan left yesterday for a week for Cuba. I already miss him but when he gets back, everything will be amazing! I am depressed that he is gone but I am also excited for his return! It's kind of sad to think that two days we were fighting becuase someone told him, I am a slut..... if you actually know me, you would know the truth and why should I care about what some nobody thinks of me. I am happy with myself.
So today I realized how big of a loser I am. For the first time in three years I have a friday night off, I am working the day shift, and although I tried very hard to find plans; it was quite unsuccessful, and it ends with me doing laundry on a Friday night. I have even considered going to the laundry mat to make it look like there is a reason I have to do laundry on Friday...... Empty out all my drawers and do every peice of laundry I own at the laundry mat. That would be quite funny.
So I had to redo the whole schedual. I wanted the 16th to 18th off so i can spend it with Stefan. He says we are going away somewhere "an hour away". I don't know if he means an hour from my house or an hour from his.... but either way, I hope it's fun.
I had a dream last night. I don't know why I am posting this, I guess right now I am in a very open mood becuase I met three knew people with my friend Kat; they were all really nice. My dream was about a cabin, snow all around it and i was just sitting cuddling with Stefan in front of a fireplace with a blanket wrapped around us. I guess I saw it in some movie once upon a time and now that i am getting my first taste of romance, I am thinking of all these things. Kind of sad, I am already 19 and I am just having my first taste of romance.
Romance.... It scares me.... You instintly drop all your sheilds and you are head over heels for that person. A little thing can be romantic, a single flower, a little note..... Even finding a little ticket stub in your wallet that says <3 Odd One. Yet this is the first time i have even experienced it.... now that is truely sad..... i must be a bigger loser then I orginally thought.
I guess that is it.... you know me....
Love,
Donny Bam Bam
Stefan left yesterday for a week for Cuba. I already miss him but when he gets back, everything will be amazing! I am depressed that he is gone but I am also excited for his return! It's kind of sad to think that two days we were fighting becuase someone told him, I am a slut..... if you actually know me, you would know the truth and why should I care about what some nobody thinks of me. I am happy with myself.
So today I realized how big of a loser I am. For the first time in three years I have a friday night off, I am working the day shift, and although I tried very hard to find plans; it was quite unsuccessful, and it ends with me doing laundry on a Friday night. I have even considered going to the laundry mat to make it look like there is a reason I have to do laundry on Friday...... Empty out all my drawers and do every peice of laundry I own at the laundry mat. That would be quite funny.
So I had to redo the whole schedual. I wanted the 16th to 18th off so i can spend it with Stefan. He says we are going away somewhere "an hour away". I don't know if he means an hour from my house or an hour from his.... but either way, I hope it's fun.
I had a dream last night. I don't know why I am posting this, I guess right now I am in a very open mood becuase I met three knew people with my friend Kat; they were all really nice. My dream was about a cabin, snow all around it and i was just sitting cuddling with Stefan in front of a fireplace with a blanket wrapped around us. I guess I saw it in some movie once upon a time and now that i am getting my first taste of romance, I am thinking of all these things. Kind of sad, I am already 19 and I am just having my first taste of romance.
Romance.... It scares me.... You instintly drop all your sheilds and you are head over heels for that person. A little thing can be romantic, a single flower, a little note..... Even finding a little ticket stub in your wallet that says <3 Odd One. Yet this is the first time i have even experienced it.... now that is truely sad..... i must be a bigger loser then I orginally thought.
I guess that is it.... you know me....
Love,
Donny Bam Bam