If I could just stop shaking maybe I'd be able to get some FUCKING SLEEP ( Read more... )

Don't run from this. That's what I have to keep telling myself. Don't run from pretty much the best thing you got going for you.

Besides the pure stupidity of it, they don't deserve that. They don't fucking deserve me to freak out and decide they don't care about me when they have done nothing but care about me, love me for fuck's sake, give me a ( Read more... )

I hate that I could shock him like that and it wasn't even... the worst thing. Ok, it was bad, but... Fuck. Sometimes I want to talk about shit but I can't stand pity. Or vulnerability ( Read more... )

Okay, so I'm finished with uni for the summer ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if being fucked up is defined by being the same way despite people liking my fic, despite some fucking awesome marks of work from uni, despite... nothing bad happening today; being Fucked Up.

( And by 'you' I mean 'me'. I do that. When I want to feel like I'm not talking about myself I substitute the 'I's for 'you's. And it works. )

Best friends
Ex-friends to the end
Better off as lovers
And not other way around

No better way to describe my night with my ex-soul mate (if such a thing exists).

God, just... shit.

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Sometimes I'd love it if I could just stop thinking.

Just... stop.

Stupid memories. Stupid past. Stupid fucked up head.

Whatever. I'm over it, just get the fuck out of my head bitch before I snap you in half.

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( I did my thing, fell apart, now I get back up again. It's how it works. )

( okay so )

( emo crap ftw, like srsly )