Get out before you get rejected (makes sense if you're me)

[minus_four]

I hate that I could shock him like that and it wasn't even... the worst thing. Ok, it was bad, but... Fuck. Sometimes I want to talk about shit but I can't stand pity. Or vulnerability.

What if they don't really want me? It's just pity then, maybe. I guess. In which case I don't really feel like sticking around.

So I run away.

This is just bad timing. Or it's all connected.