And fucking up your finger from pushing on the ring

Well, we lie on frigid shores of light
We knew nothing of this bitter hand of war
Something strange in the coals tonight
Still we knew nothing of these bitter hands of warso, but to keep on it while i'm on it though. my last memory of this shed before coming back here is a mouse jumping on me ( Read more... )

I've not been writing because I've not really been doing... anything since hearing from my aunt's lawyer about the Mom stuff. Estate law is super weird and has all kinds of weird reasons for being the way it is I guess. So even though my aunt took care of everything after Mom died, technically I need my stepdad to sign off for me to have access to ( Read more... )

What do you say after radio silence? I never really knew. When I was a kid we moved, back and forth between Orleans and Rockland a few times. And each time, I'd lose my set of friends in one place, only to find my old friends had become different in my absence. Not because of it, we were just kids after all. Just in the way that we all change with ( Read more... )

Can't find my way and I'm, I'm getting used to itMy brain has been acting up and Im just realizing now how long Ive been plucking away at this. When I was 19 and my brain would not shut off at the end of the day, I started taking pills. My whole body would tense up and my mond would be racing, but that part has always happened and i didnt realize ( Read more... )

Things with Greg were really good at first. I spent more time at his apartment than he did at mine, which was maybe foreshadowing for some issues we're still working on, but that meant there weren't roommates intruding on our hang out time. And there wasnt much hangout time, between my schedule and his. i essentially had to schedule myself around ( Read more... )

It's still a waiting game for documents. I mean besides what I've received from Children's Aid so far ( Read more... )

I received a summary of the non-identifying information in my brother's adoption file today. Two pages typed up neatly, the entire first year of his life. Mom's 17th year too. I tried to work this afternoon after I got the email, but all I could think about was my small Mom, putting myself at 17 with a whole kid to figure out how to take care of ( Read more... )

A whole lot of things went down at the movie theatre in this period of time, none of which is particularly important but all of which can be summed up with: dealing with abusive "artists". That's goes for most of the time at the Mayfair, to be honest ( Read more... )

Here's how I felt about group on day 3:

Today was day 3 of group, and by far the hardest for me so far. Apparently my ( Read more... )

I'm starting to have to refer to my old journal a bit more, because this period was really difficult and i really felt all over the place. so we're going to rewind a tiny bit and i will correct myself. because i actually landed in the hospital twice ( Read more... )