what is wrong with me and why cant anything make it stop

Today is my first day back to work.  Wish me luck.  I'm terrified.  My brain is still like swiss cheese and I can't remember anything for the life'a me.  This should be interesting.  Oh, and I have to work an extra hour and a half every day this week, plus I'm working on Thanksgiving. 

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Well it’s official, the ECT has destroyed my memory. I would list all of the things that I can no longer remember.. but.. I can’t remember what they are. I couldn’t remember how to get home from the hospital today. That’s a trip that I drive every single day and absolutely ( Read more... )

Ok here is a picture of my gnarly bruise for your enjoyment. This badboy landed me in the substance abuse group today too.


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Well I wanted to post to let the world know that I made it through ECT today. My bruised back is giving me a lot of trouble today but I'm still upright and kickin'. I wanted to take a picture of the gnarly bruise but I couldn't find my camera. Oh Well. I wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and for all of your concern. As much as I ( Read more... )

I had phone calls from my doctor and nurse today. I didn't go to day hospital as I usually do on my non-ECT days so they called to check on me. They also wanted to check on me because I told my ECT doc that I had a little overdose of pills on Sunday night which resulted in me falling down and getting all bruised up. They weren't too happy about ( Read more... )

Well I guess you could say that the cumulative effect of memory loss is catching up with me. Today, I'm not even sure what day it is. I vaguely remember the weekend. I don't know what I've been doing this month, I don't remember how long I've been gone from work, or even what my job was. I'm starting to wonder if the solution is worse than the ( Read more... )

I'm a little short on rent.. about.. $600 short. So if anyone can help out, The help would be greatly appreciated. I'm back in the hospital again and not earning a paycheck. We're not keeping up with just Lumpy's paychecks. Anything that anyone can help with is more than I expect and would be happy about.

Woke up crying.. didn't get much done today... now I'm at work and having another melt down. I give up.

Well, today is my second day back at work. I am working half days this week and next week it's back to my 8 hour days. They have moved my shift from up at the hospital in Baltimore, down to Columbia. It has added an extra 30 minutes of driving. Driving alone for long periods can be bad for me. When I'm in one of my moods, all I can think about ( Read more... )